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was just being curious, not really prying when I opened it to the first page. What stared back at me was something I would have never thought I would see.
    He’d gotten everything perfect, from my blue eyes to the highlights in my brown hair. My fingernails and even the color of my skin was so precise that I could have been looking in the mirror.
    Under the picture it was titled, “My Kat”. I closed the book and tossed it when I heard someone approaching the door. I hadn’t realized that I’d been staring at it long enough for the guys to be done helping out.
    Brooks walked into the room and was shocked to find me still inside. He closed the door behind him and crossed his arms over his chest.
    I stood up and walked toward him, until our faces were almost touching. “How long have you been in love with me, Brooks?”
    He smiled, but didn’t drop his arms from his chest. “That question isn’t going to get answered.”
    When he started to walk to the side, I grabbed him. There was no way I was going to be able to let him go without knowing the truth. “I would have picked you, and you know it. So I need an answer. How long?”
    He turned to look at me, and his eyes were full of tears. I felt him touching me on my cheek again and tilted my head as an automatic reaction. “I’ve loved you for as long as I could remember.”
    My lips were trembling again as I started to cry for a different reason. “Why didn’t you tell me?”
    “It doesn’t matter anymore. You’re going to be happy with Branch. He loves you. I’ll be out of the picture and it will get easier. The distance between us will help.”
    I shook my head, unwilling to accep t that he was leaving to make things better.
    He leaned in and kissed me one more time on the forehead. “Just remember that you were my first.”
    I tried to smile. “I’ll never forget our first kiss, Brooks.”
    He moved out of the way and I knew I had to get out of there. I put my hand on the doorknob when he said something that shocked me. “I wasn’t just talking about a kiss, Kat.”
    I turned around and looked at him, wondering what he meant. “Huh?”
    “September 11 th, for the past two years. I’m surprised you didn’t know, being as I’ve always been there for you on that day, because unlike my brother, I never could sleep that night knowing you were so upset.”
    I thought back to that night last year and how I’d been so sad and gone to bed. I remembered Branch coming into the room and me asking him to sleep with me. I remembered thanking Branch the next morning and him responding like he hadn’t done that much for me.

    Oh my God! It wasn’t Branch.

    Then I looked up at Brooks as chills overwhelmed my whole body. “You…oh God. You.”
    I put my hand over my mouth. Brooks walked up close to me, so that nobody could hear. “I waited until the perfect moment to have you for myself. You had to be my first Kat, and I knew it was the only way it could happen.”
    I didn’t know what to say or do. He hadn’t raped me. I wondered if I had known would I have told him to stop.
    The answer was no .
    I would have let it happen, because somewhere inside of me I always knew I was supposed to be with him.
    I ran out of his room and into mine, where I locked the door and prayed Branch wouldn’t come looking for me.
    My G od, I’d slept with his brother and nobody had even known.

    Not even me.

    I was a horrible person, for not only having feelings, but for letting him stay so close to us.

    He’d taken advantage of me.
    He’d stolen from me.

    I rushed back into his room, loaded with anger. “Don’t come visit me in college, Brooks. You’re ri ght, I need to be away from you so that I can be happy with Branch. We don’t need you trying to push us apart. And as far as those two nights go, that goes to your grave with you. I won’t lose Branch over this.”
    I didn’t know how he felt when I left his room and I wanted to believe that at that moment I was