see Dr. Staton, let me call and see if I can get you an appointment. I’m sure they can work you in.” She tells me as she walks to the other side of the kitchen to get the phone.
“I already have an appointment with Dr. Staton, but they can’t see me for two weeks.”
“That’s okay. That will give you time to let it all sink in. If you can remember the last time you slept with Colton and when you slept with Luke, they may be able to sort out the daddy dilemma when they give your due date. Just don’t panic yet. Have you told Colton about Luke?
“Hell no! Why would I do that?”
“You need to be honest with him, Carly. If there is any chance of this baby being Luke’s, it could take a few months before they can run the paternity test. You can’t lead him on like that.”
“I won’t, Savannah. I just don’t know what to say. He’s gonna hate me.”
“You don’t know that and it may not even be anything to worry with. You remember when you slept with Luke, so if it’s longer than that, you’ll know the baby is Colton’s. Just don’t worry about the what-ifs just yet. Do you want me to go with you to your first appointment?”
“Thanks Savannah. I’m sure Colton will go to my first appointment with me.”
“Glad to help. Just take my advice and don’t go around sleepin’ with anyone ‘til you know who the daddy is, okay. Can you at least do that?” She asks, snickering. Great, my sister must think I’m a slut.
“Hell yeah. I plan to avoid them both like the frickin’ plague, although Colton will be a little harder to hide from than Luke.”
“Do you think the baby is Colton’s?” She ask with a hopeful look on her face.
“I’m prayin’ like hell that it is. I think the world of Luke. He is a great guy, and my best friend. But he ain’t Colton. Colton is so excited, and he wants to start telling everyone NOW. He is gonna be crushed if this ain’t his baby, Savannah. I can’t imagine shattering him like that.” I say as my eyes fill to the brim with tears.
“Don’t let your emotions get the best of you, Carly. You’ll figure all of this out. You may need to put a little distance between Colton and yourself, until you are ready to tell him about Luke.”
As bad as I hate to admit it , I think she is right. Until I’m ready to be honest with Colton about what happened with Luke, I think I need to put some space between us. Maybe then if this is Luke’s baby, it may soften the blow.
We sit and make small talk for an hour, sipping our sweet tea and just enjoying some sisterly time together. Braden sleeps the entire time during my visit. Savannah tells me that he has the stomach bug, and I remember how vicious the virus is from when Heidi Jo was sick a while back. After I’ve over stayed my welcome, and Josh’s incessant glares and huffs have pierced my skin enough, I decide to make m y way home for a quiet evening.
Chapter 4
Returning home from Savannah’s that evening, I check my voicemail to find two messages from Colton. I know he worries about me on any given day, but I’m positive that now that I’m pregnant he will be even more over protective. I kinda hate that. I like my independence. I don’t reply to his messages. I miss him, and hearing his voice, feeling his touch would soothe me immensely right now. But I need to separate myself from him over the next few weeks, just like I have over the last month. He knows I’m scared about the pregnancy, so maybe he will give me some breathing room. Ah who the hell am I kidding?
I clean the house from top to bottom because God knows nothing settles my rambled nerves like staying busy and the smell of Lysol. After the house is spotless and sparkling brightly, I soak in a scolding bubble bath. The scent of Japanese cherry blossoms fills the room and it reminds me of the first shower Colton and I took together after our first very passionate and seductive evening together. We had just unleashed Hell’s fury on each