sincerity, and she looked back down at the table. âYou know how old people are sometimes asked the secret of their long marriage and they always say there are good times and there are bad times and the secret is perseverance or whatever, youâve got to work at it, and everyone says, âAh, isnât that lovely and old-fashioned. What a pity we arenât like that any more.â Well, I reckon the old buggers are right, you do have to work at it and the best sort of marriage comes from two people having spent a long time together sharing a house and a bed and having so much to do bringing up half a dozen kids that there simply wasnât the time to wonder whether theyâd hitched themselves to a soul mate. And then when the kids leave home one by one to go and do the same thing themselves the two old codgers are left together and discover that theyârefused at the hip. And maybe thatâs actually what love is and everyone more or less knows it but doesnât like to admit it because they prefer the Hollywood version. I donât know.â
Annie looked around. No other couples seemed to be talking this earnestly. Indeed most sat in silence, looking across the crowded concourse, their hand luggage packed around their feet like plumply obedient dogs.
âAnd one more thing. Iâm in too far already so I might as well say it. Iâm not too bad a bloke. No, Iâll rephrase that. Iâm a good bloke. I know blokes pretty well. Iâve spent a lot of time with blokes. And some of them are pretty nasty and a lot of them are bloody selfish or vain or they lie a lot, especially to women. Well, I may not be the most sensitive or emotional bugger on the planet, but Iâm not nasty and I wonât bloody deceive you, just as Iâm not trying to deceive you now.
âSo, Annie, yeah, go to New Zealand, go back home and I hope you find your dad and anything else you may be looking for. And Iâll be here when you come back, and Iâm yours if you want me. But if you do want me itâs on the condition that weâre going to get married and start having a whole tribe of kids. Which will probably mean youâll have to give up work, and Iâll have to earn a heap more money and, but hell, it canât be that hard, can it? I mean raising a familyâs not exactly unheard of. No, donât say anything. Iâm glad to have got that all out. Now Iâll be off.â
They both stood. He opened his arms to draw her in and kissed her on the lips and then folded her, pressed her againsthis chest and it was like being clamped in a warm cupboard. He kissed the top of her head.
âYou have a good flight,â he said. âAnd email me when you get there, okay?â
By way of a reply she squeezed herself tighter against his chest and stayed there a while, her cheek against his ribs, and then she pulled away and they stood facing each other and he stroked the sleeve of her coat and was half bashful schoolboy again and she felt a surge of affection and he said, âBe seeing you, Annie,â and smiled and turned away. She stood where she was in the cafe and watched him till he reached the automatic glass doors and he turned and waved and she waved back, though she wasnât sure that heâd have made her out. Then she turned and breathed deeply and went to join the absurdly long queue for security, at the far end of which sheâd be obliged to remove her shoes.
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Some time during the night Annie went to the toilet, then leant a while on the bulbous emergency door, peering out of the window over what was probably central southern Russia. Each settlement 40,000 feet below was visible only as a cluster of lights, joined to other clusters by roads that showed as the frailest of gossamer threads. Annie felt a sense of the worldâs vastness, of all the millions down there leading lives as remote from hers as the lives of plants or antelope, people