was feeling. She didn't want
to diminish the experience with anything less than the perfect words.
With a smile, she
shifted her hands across the short strands of his hair and returned the
kiss. Happy to let
that simple act convey all that she was feeling.
They lingered there,
still joined, until nature took matters into its own hands and he slipped from
her.
Wordlessly, they moved
beneath the blankets and to the center of her bed.
She lay there, facing
him, both hesitant and expectant until he laid a hand at her waist and soothed
it up and down her side in a reassuring caress.
“Are you worried that
I'll leave or that I'll stay?”
Chapter 5
A myriad of emotions
flashed across Nickie's expressive face.
She'd never been
good at hiding her feelings and that hadn't changed , Jase thought.
With the barest shrug of
a fine-boned shoulder, she said, “A little bit of each.”
He totally
understood. Every second spent with her
like this was a second to be treasured, but also a second that made the thought
of leaving her tomorrow even harder. “I
get what you're feeling. This isn't easy
for me either.”
“So why do this, Jase ? This is an
impossible situation,” she said and the glint of tears filmed over the dark
hazel of her gaze.
He cupped her cheek and
smoothed his thumb across it, trying to offer comfort. “I don't believe in impossible, babe. I never have. This won't be easy, I'll give you that, but I think it's worth it. Don't you?”
A ghost of a smile
flitted across her lips before it blossomed into a big smile that chased away
her tears. “Yeah, I do, Jase . I think it's worth it.”
He grinned and hauled
her close, and she pillowed her head on his one arm and twined her legs with
his. She wrapped one arm around his waist and tucked the other beneath his head
as they lay there, facing each other. Still feeling the uncertainty of new lovers and the eternal “WTF do we
do now?” in the aftermath of their lovemaking.
Jase's stomach settled
it for them with a loud growl.
He spread his hand
across his midsection, chuckled, and grinned. “The party pickin's were good, but not very
filling.”
“I'm a little hungry,
too. How about I go get some food?” she
said, but she was in motion before he could answer, grabbing her robe and
rushing to her door.
Like he had before, he
understood where she was mentally. She
needed a little bit of time to gather herself. To understand
why she was doing something so totally out of character and as she had said,
something seemingly impossible.
So he lay back against
her pillows and waited, hoping that the time alone wouldn't give her an
opportunity to reconsider her earlier emotions.
* * *
Nickie closed the door
to her bedroom and leaned against the wall, sucking in a deep breath to calm
the maelstrom of feelings swirling around in her head and heart.
Nothing could have ever
prepared her for what it was like to be with Jase . Nothing. It was better than anything she could have
imagined with the power to bring joy, but also to destroy her. She knew that now. She wasn’t just giving him her body, she was
giving him her heart and soul and that brought the possibility of lots of pain
if things didn’t work out.
They'd already admitted
that what came next wasn't going to be easy.
She still had years to
complete in medical school and he had years to serve to pay back the costs for
his college tuition.
Years of
separation , she thought, her throat tight with emotion.
She finally pushed off
the wall and headed toward the kitchen, telling herself not to logic herself
out of one of the most amazing and rewarding things that had ever happened to
her.
In the kitchen she
grabbed a breakfast tray and loaded it up with an assortment of the foods that
had been left over from the party. Cheeses and fruits. A small plate with some finger sandwiches. There was an almost full bottle of red