Amazing how things changed
when she finally found two men to love her and fuck her on a
semi-around-the-clock basis. “You have a potty mouth, sweet Haleigh.”
The girl who had been scared of her own shadow the first
time she’d walked into Jenna’s prep room winked at her. “I learned from the
best.”
“But that’s just it.” She leaned forward, as much as her
steel-boned corset would allow, whispering to the women she called family. “I’m
a fraud, a phony. I tell people all the time to take the bull by the horns, but
it’s nothing more than just a plain stupid phrase. I followed my own advice and
I’m full of shit. This was a bad idea. I—”
“Calm, honey. Take a breath.” Cyn rubbed her back and
thankfully Oscar arrived bearing glasses filled with liquid horny for the rest
of them.
“I don’t think I’ll ever be calm again.” She took another
sip and tried to take Cyn’s advice. Melodramatic wasn’t her style. She flirted
and winked at everyone, hiding what she was and what she needed so desperately.
Fuck .
Three weeks without restful sleep had turned on the faucet
of her fears and she couldn’t get the bastard to turn back off.
“Finish your drink and we’ll make small talk about nothing
in particular. Afterward we’ll head down to one of the playrooms you had on
your list you needed to set for tonight. We’ll help and you can get some stuff
off your chest.”
Jenna looked at Skye, who was surprisingly subdued. She
glanced at the other two girls and then back to Skye.
“You never talk about it. Never talk about him. I think you
should. We all love you and want to give you the same strength you gave us when
we were too scared to trust what was inside us.” Skye reached across the table
and took her hand.
Jenna teared up again and closed her eyes.
She took a deep breath and said, “Okay…” Then drained the
rest of her drink.
Chapter Three
Jenna hiked up her big-girl panties and pasted on a smile
when the girls had also finished their drinks. She went so far as to wink at
Oscar as they’d left the bar area. He’d narrowed his eyes at her, making her
laugh and feel much more like herself.
She tried to shut off her thoughts and just…be.
As they walked down the hallway to the elevator, the other
women made small talk and caught up on gossip. Info on members who’d been
collared, subs who morphed into switches when the right person or scene
presented itself, and new members cast away the silence as they walked. Jenna
was sincerely thankful for the company.
Kinky people in general were highly gossipy. Jenna
considered it a known fact and took it all in stride. She laughed a couple
times and added her two cents here and there, but mostly just took the time to
put her proverbial shields back up.
By the time they made it downstairs to one of the private
playrooms, the freak-out caused by Nick being too close and way too perceptive
ebbed away from her.
She ran her fingers over the boning of her corset, blowing a
silent breath into the elevator. Determination straightened her spine. She
could handle it and him.
No doubt about the fact that she found Nick attractive, but
that was it. She didn’t have the time or energy for anything else.
She rolled her eyes at herself.
Sheesh .
She made a note on her mental to-do list to get laid more
often and grinned at the metal door as she swiped her card. After inputting her
password to get inside she pushed the door wide.
“Who’s the room for?” Haleigh asked as she looked around the
open space.
It was a dungeon, plain and simple. Tall, concrete block
walls painted in a matte black, stained concrete floor, bed, sparse furniture
with a more than sinister feel to them, and a toy closet holding all sorts of
naughty things to play with.
“Chris and Jared,” Jenna whispered not wanting whomever was
manning the security booth to pick up on what she said.
“Ooh,” Skye and Haleigh cooed in unison.
“What?” Cyn blurted out,