tonight.â
Apparently just hearing the bastardâs name was enough to get her scowling again, even as she blinked in obvious confusion. âWhatâs he got to do withââ Her eyes widened. âWe donât
live
together. Stanley lives up over the office and I live in my parentsâ house.â She looked utterly scandalized. âAnd even if our engagement was real, we wouldnât live together without being
married
.â
Now Jesse was confused. âAre you saying you and Stanley arenât really engaged?â
She dropped her gaze and slowly started sliding the diamond ring up and down the fourth finger of her left hand, her bluster evaporating on a deep sigh. âItâs only pretend,â she admitted softly. âJust like the stone in this ring.â She looked up. âWe got engaged shortly after my father had his second heart attack over two years ago. Knowing Dad worried about my being alone if he died, Stanley and I hoped that telling him we were engaged might ease some of the stress on his heart.â
âAnd for the fourteen months since his death?â Jesse asked gently.
âSince everyone in town also believed the engagement was real, we decided to go on pretending until we could make it look like we simply fell out of love but could still be friends.â
âAnd itâs taking over a year to fall out of fake love?â
âNo, itâs taking Stanley that long to find a new partner.â She snorted. âAnd for me to work up the nerve to finally leave Whistlerâs Landing.â
âAnd go where?â Jesse asked in surprise.
âAnywhere,â she muttered, stretching to reach the wine bottle, then lifting it to her mouth and tilting her head back in the apparent hope it had magically refilled.
Jesse remembered the other thing sheâd said that had caught his attention. âSo you wouldnât consider living with a man youâre not married to?â he asked when she finally gave up and lowered the bottle. âI realize Whistlerâs Landing might be frozen in time, but surely you know this is the twenty-first century.â
That got him a derisive smile. âYou try living in a small town full of people who are two and three generations older than you and not be old-fashioned. My parents tried having children early in their marriage without success, until my mother suddenly found herself pregnant at fifty-one years old.â She chuckled. âI got my driverâs license the same day she got her first social security check in the mail.â But then her smile turned sad. âShe died in her sleep when I was twenty. I left college to come home and be with Dad, and finished working on my degree by driving to the University of Maine in Machias three days a week.â
âA degree in architecture?â
She shook her head. âIâm not a detail person and would go insane if I had to spend hours hunched over a drafting table trying to decide where every light switch should go.â
Jesse arched a brow again. âYou donât spend hours hunched over your models?â
âThatâs different,â she said with a shrug. âMy dad realized early on that I visualized things three-dimensionally, which is why he decided to teach me to fabricate his models. When Iâm building, itâs like Iâm actually walking around inside the house.â She shot him a smile. âOr traipsing all over a forested island.â
âSo what is your degree in?â
Her smile went back to being derisive. âMy original plan was to become a lawyer and set up shop in Ellsworth so Iâd be close to my parents. But when Mom died, I switched from pre-law to environmental tourism when Dad suggested we could build a campground at the far end of our property to bring tourists to the area.â
âBut now youâve changed your mind and want to leave?â
âWell, yeah,â she