her nose. âYou sure did. You must have been having some real nice dreams.â
She arched an eyebrow. âI donât know,â she said, shrugging her shoulders. âI canât remember.â
âYou want some cereal?â
She nodded.
âOkay, take a seat in the kitchen and Iâll get it for you.â
I thought my knees were going to give out on me a couple of times as we walked hand in hand. I found her favorite cereal, nearly dropping the bowl as I took it from the cabinet.
âMorning, honey,â Candy said, dressed in her mommy robe and fuzzy slippers.
Plopping Katieâs cereal in front of her, I said to Candy, âI need to talk to you in the living room.â
She looked concerned. I didnât have a good poker face.
âSure. Katie, baby, weâll be right back.â
âOkay, Mommy.â
Candy slipped her hands in mine. âWhatâs up, Peter? You look like youâre having a panic attack.â
âI have something to tell you and I need you to stay calm,â I said. I swallowed hard, fighting back another bout of nausea.
She said, âI know this is hard for you and even when I tell you weâre going to be all right, it doesnât feel like it at the moment. Iâm glad youâre talking to me. Tell me whatever youâre feeling so we can work through it together.â
I looked into her hazel eyes and saw so much love there. Would that love remain when I confessed? I didnât want to lose her. It would be easier if I just shut up.
No! When Iâd taken those lives, Iâd already lost her by destroying myself.
âCandy, look, Iâ¦Iâ¦â
The tempest of pain came roaring back, shattering my skull like it has been carpet bombed. I strangled out some kind of cry and felt my bowels let loose, shitting myself with such force, I thought Iâd ruptured something. I felt Candyâs hand on me but couldnât hear her.
Before I blacked out, I saw the fire again, a hundred-foot high wall of flame, consuming everything in its path. Candy and Katie reached out for me within the flames, pleading for help, their flesh turning black, cracking and popping until they collapsed out of sight.
Madness
Chapter Nine
This time, I woke up in a curtained-off section of Bridgton Hospitalâs emergency room. There was an IV in my arm and a cannula under my nose. Candy jumped from the chair beside my bed and brushed the hair from my forehead.
âOh, thank God,â she said. âI was so worried.â
My head was groggy. There must have been some kind of sedative in the IV.
âWhat happened?â I said.
âYou had a seizure. I called the ambulance. You were still seizing when they got you here. When it stopped, you passed out.â
I tried to lift my head from the pillow. That wasnât happening.
âWhat time is it?â I asked.
She checked her watch. âAlmost ten.â
âAt least I wasnât out long,â I said, attempting to muster a smile.
âItâs ten at night,â she said.
âIâve been unconscious for over twelve hours?â
âYes.â
âWhereâs Katie?â
âSheâs with Huey and Anne next door. I just checked on her half an hour ago. Sheâs asleep on their couch.â
âDidâ¦did she see what happened?â
Candyâs eyes shimmered. âShe did. She was scared, but I was able to calm her down. When I told her you were all right, she said she was going to make you some get well soon cards.â
I felt like I was made of oatmeal. I didnât think I had the strength to lift a soda can.
âDid the doctors say what happened?â
âThey think you have a viral infection,â Candy said. âYou were burning up when you got here, just like yesterday.â
âDid they take a CAT scan or anything?â
I thought, maybe I had a brain infection or a tumor. That would explain the whole AO