said. âWhereâs Lewis?â
âHe was too busy to come.â
âHeâs always too busy. Given how much he works, he ought to be president of the World Bank by now.â
Lynne approached. She was wearing a white dress made of broderie anglaise ; the pattern of little holes in the fabric made it impossible not to wonder what lay beneath. âIâve had this since we were at York,â she said, âand I thought if I couldnât wear it today, then I never could.â The three of us chatted for a few minutes before moving on to talk to people we saw less often. There was something enchanted about the afternoon: we were all, briefly, young and brilliant again, transported to those days at university when anything seemed possible.
After talking to one of Charlieâs colleagues and several old friends, I found myself a bystander to a conversation about one of our more controversial lecturers. I had never actually met him, and after two or three anecdotes I wandered over to the table.
A short-haired woman wearing a checked shirt and jeans said hello. I suddenly recognised Mary.
âHave you tried the trifle?â she asked. âCharlie and Nick are the only people I know besides my mother who still make puddings.â She ladled a final dollop of cream into her bowl.
At York, Mary, with her long blond hair and costly clothes, had seemed the acme of sophistication; ten years later she was no less formidable, although in a very different way. I asked if she was still working as a translator.
âNo, I have a bread-and-butter job in a bookshop, but I spend most of my time teaching classes in self-defence for women.â
âYou mean like karate or judo?â
âItâs a sort of grab bag of martial arts. I aim to teach skills that can be used by women of all ages and levels of physical fitness.â
I described my companyâs new policy on sexism in textbooks, a major step forward which Mary at once condemned
as inadequate. We drifted into conversation about mutual acquaintances. âLast time I spoke to Frances she told me that you and she had become neighbours in Peckham,â I said.
âTwenty minutes on brisk foot. Frances is a dear. I think she worries that Iâll turn into a bag lady. Sheâs always inviting me over for a square meal. What about Lewis Jenkins?â she asked. âI thought he might be here.â
What angel or demon prompted me to indicate merely vague recognition? Mary had just taken a mouthful of trifle, and there was a pause before she continued. âI work near his office so I run into him once in a while, and every time I see him, I swear heâs with a different woman. A couple of weeks ago he came into the shop with someone I know slightly; sheâs a friend of a friend. Since then Iâve been wondering what to do. On the one hand I think I ought to tell her, so sheâll know where she stands, and on the other, that seems like meddling.â
âPerhaps theyâre just friends,â I said. We were standing beside the table, and I laid down my plate, for fear that Mary would notice the shaking of my hands.
âNo, there were too many little pats and gestures for that. They were all over each other.â Mary licked her spoon in a satisfied way and laid aside her plate. She stood straighter, with her arms folded, to pronounce judgement. âIâm afraid heâs a textbook case, an intelligent, charming man whom you canât trust to go to the shops for a pint of milk.â
What did I say? I have no idea. Maybe Charlie came round with the teapot, or maybe Nick urged me to try the cake he had made. I left as soon as I could, pleading an evening engagement. On the train home I experienced despair, shame, fury, but also relief. I had felt at times almost mad in the face of his injured innocence. Even when I could smell the other women on him, he would be telling me that my suspicions were