great deal, which Iâm sure comes as no surprise to you.â
âBy choice,â he pointed out.
She let her breath go in a silent sigh. âIâm sorry, Amarok. If you want me to apologize again, I will.â
âIâm not asking you to apologize. Iâm not asking you for anything. Iâm just saying, if a friend in Anchorage is your best alternative, youâll have to stay with me whether you like it or not.â
âIâm fine with it, as long as ⦠as long as you donât mind.â
He didnât try very hard to make her feel welcome, but she supposed she should be happy for what reassurance he offered. âI donât mind. Not if you plan on sharing.â
He didnât specify what.
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I didnât know what made people want to be friends. I didnât know what made people attractive to one another. I didnât know what underlay social interactions.
âTED BUNDY, SERIAL KILLER, RAPIST, KIDNAPPER AND NECROPHILIAC
Evelyn was a little drunk. She suspected Amarok was, too. He sat below her, his back against the couch on which she lay, as they started on a second bottle of Salmonberry Wine, a local favorite. The alcohol had mellowed him and made her talkative, maybe too talkative, but she couldnât remember when sheâd had a better time, especially with nothing but Led Zeppelin playing in the background, a fire raging in the hearth and a man she barely knew for company. With the storm pummeling the house and flame the only light in Amarokâs cabin-like living room, it felt as if they were camping on the very edge of civilization.
âI canât believe we ate all the junk I bought.â She groaned, gazing at the candy bar, chips and cookie wrappers strewn on the floor.
âWe didnât eat it all . We skipped some of the cold cereal and the soup.â
âBut we mustâve consumed three thousand calories each . Actually, I think you consumed twice that much.â
He lifted his big shoulders in a shrug. âSaved me from cooking dinner.â
She laughed, feared it sounded more like a giggle, and forced herself to stop. When was the last time sheâd giggled ? Maybe never. Unless it was before Jasper Moore revealed his true self. She tended to measure her life that way. Before the attack and after.
âBesides, Makita helped.â He whistled to his dog. âDidnât you, boy?â
Amarokâs Alaskan malamute, who was dozing by the fire, lifted his head to acknowledge his master, causing the tag on his collar to jingle.
âHeâll probably be sick tonight,â she mused.
âNah. Heâll take a big dump and be fine.â
She shifted on the couch. When they first got home Amarok had provided her with some sweats, but the heat of the fire had caused her to peel them off. Now she was dressed in an Alaska State Trooper T-shirt and a pair of boxers, with a fuzzy throw blanket to cover her bare legs. âStill, we shouldâve opted for a salad. I can already feel the fat clogging my arteries.â
He held up his glass and gazed at the liquid inside. âHow often do you let yourself eat as many Twinkies as you want?â
âNever.â
âSo donât worry about it, Doc. You can go back to eating salad and measuring the dressing tomorrow.â
Sheâd essentially come to the same conclusion. It was almost as if sheâd left her Hanover House persona in the spare bedroom where sheâd hung her suit. For the past couple of hours sheâd been talking and laughing and feeling like a regular woman. Sheâd also been ignoring the fact that she and Amarok had a little history togetherâand, to her relief, Amarok was doing the same. The escape alone was enough to make her feel drunk. âI donât measure my dressing!â
âYouâre the measuring type.â
She leaned up on her elbow to take another sip of wine. âMeaning what?