that gripped both her parents like a fist long enough each day to run his company. Heâd been the one sheâd called the night of the fire, hoping heâd come get her from the Lumber Baron. But heâd simply told her to sleep tight and things would be better in the morning. Sometimes she wondered whether her parents would even have shown up to claim her body if she had died in the fire.
âIâm taking a swim,â Dana said. It was ninety degrees in Reno.
She climbed the long staircase to her old bedroom and pawed through her chest of drawers, looking for a swimsuit, planning to take one back with her to Nugget, along with whatever clothing she found that still fit her. Most of it was stuff from high school that sheâd left behind when sheâd gone to USC. Like everything else in the nearly nine-thousand-square-foot brick behemoth, nothing had been touched since Paulâs death. Her room looked exactly the same as when sheâd left it. Thank God Sally still came every day or the place would be covered in dust and cobwebs, like Satis House in Great Expectations .
At the back of one of the drawers, she found a one-piece, stripped, and shimmied into it. It was snug, the bottom wedging up her butt, but no one would see her. Jogging back down the stairs, she went through the sunroom, threw the doors open, and closed the screens. The house needed light and fresh air. From the casita she grabbed a fluffy towel, threw it on a deck chair, and did a high dive from the board into the water, staying under for as long as she could hold her breath. It felt so cool that she wished she could stay beneath the surface forever.
After running around Reno most of the afternoon, buying a new phone, mattress, clothes, makeup, and other necessities sheâd lost in the fire, sheâd been ready to collapse from heat exhaustion. She wouldâve stayed the night here, in her old bed, and headed back to Nugget first thing in the morning, but the oppressiveness squeezed her like a vice. Watching her mother, a woman once so alive, sit in front of the television, catatonic . . . it was too much.
She swam a few laps, got out, and toweled off. Instead of going in the house with her wet suit on, she took it off in the casita, hung it on a hook to dry, wrapped herself in the towel, and went back to her room to dress. She rummaged through her closet and found a couple of pairs of old pants and shirts she could at least use for painting and hanging around the house. In the drawers she found a few nightshirts and a silky robe sheâd forgotten about. Now that sheâd be living with Aidan, her sleepwear would need to be modest. It wasnât that she walked around in the buff, but nothing like the see-through nightgown sheâd had on the previous night when heâd seen her underwear and God knew what else.
Her face flushed just thinking about it. It was ridiculous, but Dana felt twice as embarrassed because Aidan was so insanely good-looking. She wondered what his ex was like and why theyâd broken up. Clearly it had been serious if theyâd been living together.
Dana pulled down a duffel from the top of her closet, packed the clothes she planned to take, and carried it down the stairs.
âAre you leaving, Dana?â Her mother came into the hallway.
âYes. I have a forty-five-minute drive and want to get to Nugget before itâs dark.â
âWhat do you have there?â Betty eyed the duffel bag.
âJust some old clothes I found to hold me over until I can replace everything I lost in the fire.â
âNothing of Paulâs, right?â
âNo, Mom, nothing of Paulâs.â
âOkay, dear, have a good trip home.â
Dana didnât bother to remind her that she no longer had a home. âI love you, Mom. Tell Dad Iâm sorry I missed seeing him.â
But she had already drifted back into the den, probably to watch her programs.
Dana loaded the