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who wrote this, yes?’
    ‘Yes; I, er,
hope you think it was okay.’
    She gives me an
agonised, hopeful smile.
    ‘You say we can
leave here? That we can leave Heartache High, as long as we do all
this?’
    ‘I would hope
so,’ I admit. ‘I would hope that if we come to terms with what
we’re going through, there might be a chance of
leaving.’
    ‘Thank you!
Thank you so much!’
    She leans
forward, kisses me on the cheek warmly.
    Then she heads
out across the lawns, heading towards the school rooms.
    ‘You believe
that do you?’ Dave eyes me curiously. ‘That we can leave if we only
manage to bring our emotions under control?’
    I shake my
head.
    ‘I think that
once you’ve enrolled here, it’s too late.’
     
     
    *

Chapter 16
     
     ‘ Why do you treat me like this Steph? You know how much I love
you! I don’t deserve to be treated like this!’
    Iain is pleading
with me.
    I sneer at
him.
    ‘Don’t you
Iain?’
    ‘I deserve to
suffer because I love you?’
    ‘The way you
made me suffer when I loved you!’
    Iain looks
surprised.
    ‘I made you suffer? How did I ever make you suffer?’
    ‘You just did,
that’s all.’
    ‘Steph, believe
me; I would never make you suffer. How could I, when I love
you so much?’
    ‘Hah, now you love me! But how do you think it used to be for me when you
used to ignore me?’
    ‘Ignore you?’ He laughs, bewildered. ‘How could I ignore someone like you ? Only if I thought I was out of your league!’
    ‘Of course
you’re out of my league! But I put up with you anyway.’
    Why am I saying
these things?
    It’s my dream; at last he’s saying all the things I always wanted him to
say.
    So why I can’t I
just simply say all the things I’ve always wanted to
say?
    Wouldn’t that
make more sense that acting like I’m the sort of girl even I can’t
stand?
    I mean, if I’m
treating him like this, why’s he’s staying with me?
    Oh yeah, because
it’s a dream, right?
    It’s not real, is it?
    I’ve got to keep
on telling myself that.
    ‘You know,
you’re not the girl I’d always imagined you to be
Steph.’
    ‘Oh; just what
sort of girl did you imagine me to be then Iain?’
    ‘Well, I’d
always thought you’d be, well…you know. Kinder, for a
start.’
    ‘Kinder?’ I
laugh. ‘But if I were kinder, Iain, I wouldn’t be the girl I am,
would I? I wouldn’t be the girl you’re madly, deeply in love with,
would I?’
    ‘You know what,
Steph? I don’t think that’s right; I’d think I’d love you even
more!’
    ‘Ah, but see;
you just admitted it anyway, didn’t you? You love me anyway,
despite what I’m like.’
    ‘Yes, I love
you; I can’t resist you. But I just wish I could change you back to
who you were.’
    ‘Oh dear dear
dear! You poor poor dear!’
    I stretch out a
hand, caress his cheek and neck like he’s some poorly
pet.
    ‘Here you are,
with the most fabulous woman you’ve ever known, and you’re still not satisfied. Are you ill, do you think? Is that it?
I mean, how many other boys would be glad to be seen–’
    ‘Stop it Steph!
I’ve had it with all this! You don’t miss an opportunity to make a
fool of me in front of the other guys! Yes, they fancy you, fancy
you big time; I get that! What I don’t get is why you think you’ve
got to keep on proving it!’
    ‘Why?’ I put on
a lost little girl voice. ‘Why, because, deep down Iain, I’m this
poor, pathetic insecure little mouse you always thought I
was.’
    ‘Insecure? You ? Hah!’
    I laugh. I reach
out the pitying hand once more.
    ‘I think it’s you that’s insecure, isn’t it darling?’
    Darling ?
Since when did I use words like that?
    ‘There is a cure for it, you know.’
    ‘Cure? Cure for
what?’
    ‘Why, your
insecurity of course! Untreated, it’s going to tear us apart you
know, can’t you see that? Your jealously is already getting way out
of control! All those silly fights!’
    ‘I don’t need a
cure, I–’
    ‘Then it’s