throat and suggested that
he and I take a walk alone. I agreed and we headed outside to walk
the Vegas strip. Initially we walked in silence while I pulled my
tattered and crazy mind together. I was having a hard time focusing
of late and was beginning to believe that my time on earth was just
about over. When I felt in control I finally turned and looked at
Pau and said
“I know that you think you were helping. I
know you can tell that I am unraveling quickly and will probably
lose myself sooner rather than later. As strange as it is, in some
ways you are like a brother to me. Me born a chupacabra and you
born a skinwalker. Natural enemies. Yet, we found peace and
acceptance in our shared suffering. But you must understand it’s
too late even for my eternal heart to pull me back from the banks
of insanity. I’ve gone too long with my heart screaming for him
only to go unanswered, You know as well as I do that the only end
for me is a final ending. There can be no happily ever after.
Without an end, I will become that which we all hate and I’ve been
falsely accused of being most of my adult life a camazotz.”
I watched as Pau searched my face wanting to
believe my words were a lie. Then I saw the resignation and truth
of my words reflected back at me. I could tell that he started to
realize that I was right, that I’d been left to suffer without my
eternal heart for too long and that now there was no turning back.
Someone preferably Pau or Gaho was going to have to put me out of
my misery and save the world from what would happen once I
completely snapped.
I’d come to this meeting tonight with one
goal in mind. It hadn’t been to punish or shake my finger at Pau’s
bad attempts at being cupid. It had been to convince him that I was
becoming dangerous to myself and to the human and skinwalker
populations of the world. My mind was coming apart and it was
precariously white knuckle hanging on to the last bit of sanity. It
was no longer an “IF” I went off the deep end scenario it was a
“WHEN”. With that in mind I said to Pau
“Pau, if you have ever loved me as a friend,
you need to be the one to send me to the next plane. My survival
instincts will never allow me to do this on my own. Please Pau
consider what will happen if you allow me to walk away tonight.
Think of your loved ones and the threat I will pose to them WHEN I
go off the deep end.”
I watched his sharp mind process my words and
knew that while it caused him severe pain to admit the truth he
knew that I was right. He knew that my heart was damaged beyond
repair and that the kind and humane thing to do was to help me to
move out of this life and into the next. I saw his head droop down
and his eyes filled with moisture as he said
“I love you Taini. I haven’t said it too many
times to your face but you are not like a sister to me, you are my
sister. I will do this for you because I hate to see the pain your
heart is in. I only wish I’d done something before it was too late.
”
He reached into his pocket and pulled out a
map and a red pen. He placed the map on the top of a taxi and used
the red pen to circle in a location on the map. He folded the map
back up and placed the pen back in his pocket before turning to me
and saying
“I will do it because I love you. I am going
to have to borrow a Samurai sword from a friend who lives in Los
Angeles. I can fly there and run back in no time at all. Meet me at
that location at exactly sunrise and I will give you a painless way
into your next lifetime.”
Then to my surprise Pau pulled me in closely
for a warm embrace.
XIII ~~ Ulric's Perspective
I was still tossing and turning around in bed
when I heard someone pounding on my door. I pulled it open prepared
to see a very angry Seraphina and was shocked when instead my mum
and pop stood on the other side.
Based on the sour look on my mum’s face I’d
to assume that she had already talked to Seraphina and didn't agree
with my choice. I