people talk about how she shows her legs while playing, as if we live in America. The boys are all scared of her. Who will marry her with this reputation?â
Mary interrupts her mother, something I have not seen her do before. âAai, if we win the National match each of us will get a government job. I will have a career, status and a regular salary. You will not have to worry about what people say. All The Agnis need is to win two more games.â
Fatima turns to Sara and me, and says, âSo much depends on these next two matches. My Aai and Baba also want me to leave basketball and get married. But if we win state and national matches, I get a little money. Then wedding plans cancel!â
âYou girls are dreaming. If we win next game and enter National, where is the money to go to Delhi for National tournament? India Basketball Association is sponsoring only the boysâ team,â Rahima chimes in.
âMoney, no money, we have to win the State match, we have to be the best girlsâ team in Maharashtra,â Fatima says, holding her head high.
Mary speaks again and Iâm surprised at the fierceness in her voice. âIf we enter the Nationals, I will do anything to go to Delhi. Anything.â
I look down at the cracked cement floor of Maryâs kholi. These girlsâ unspoken storiesâtold by their torn shirts, their thin bodiesâgather like screams around me. I feel like Iâm shrinking under the weight of their ambition, their rebellion by making basketballâwhich I treat as a hobby, a jokeâa career. It holds me by the scruff of my neck. There is no air in this windowless room.
âI have to go,â I say, and before anyone can stop me, I leave the kholi.
I hear Sara throw a confused apology to the girls, but she follows me as I quickly find my way back to our waiting car.
âWhat is wrong with you?â Sara shouts when I stop, waiting for Lalit to reverse the car.
âI donât want to talk about it,â I say with finality.
âYou didnât have to be so rude. It isnât their fault that theyâre poor,â Sara says.
âIt wasnât that,â I reply, suddenly too exhausted to explain myself.
Sara sees this, and says softly, âThis place, these girls, really make you question what you believe in, donât they?â
I avoid looking at her.
âWe could have at least finished the tea,â she adds.
~
As I am opening the door of the car Sara exclaims, âLook. A bird. I think sheâs injured.â
I look where sheâs pointing and see a sparrow lying on its side, its eyes open but vacant, as if it has lost all hope.
Sara bends to pick it up. âMaybe one of the dogs attacked it.â
âDonât touch it or the other sparrows will kill it,â I warn.
But Sara is in no mood to listen to me any more. She empties an Aldo shoebox lying in the car and puts the sparrow inside it. The sparrow lies absolutely still as Sara softly coos to it.
When we reach home Sara asks me what to do with the sparrow. âShould we call a vet?â
I look inside the shoebox where the sparrow has shat little yellow-grey droppings.
âWhy do you try to rescue everyone and then expect me to bail you out?â I ask her. She doesnât reply so I add, âItâs the heat. Give the sparrow some water and itâll be fine.â
Sara sets down the box carefully on the couch and goes into the kitchen. She starts boiling water, as sheâs seen Mary do.
âItâs a bird, Sara, you can give it normal tap water,â I tell her.
âThe bird is not an âitâ but a she,â Sara says, and continues boiling the water.
âBy the time the water cools, the sparrow will die of dehydration.â
I fill some tap water in a small steel bowl and take out the dropper from Papaâs bottle of eye drops. I make Sara open the sparrowâs beak while I drip some water into her