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there are none. There are the COs, the corrections officers. But a lot of them are down with the gang members, and most of the others find it’s easier to look away when trouble starts. And trouble is always starting.”
    â€œSo what do you do?” Jaywalker asked, even though he pretty much knew the answer.
    â€œYou find safety in numbers,” Barnett told him. “You join up with the Bloods or the Kings if you’re Latino, or the Aryans if you’re white. Me, I’m black. I joined up with the Muslims. I converted to Islam.”
    Jaywalker nodded. In the 1970s, it made sense. Today, in a post-9/11 world, it would have set off alarm bells. But back then, even if you didn’t happen to be a big fan ofMalcolm X, hearing that someone was a Muslim didn’t automatically make him a terrorist.
    â€œAnd how did that work out?” Jaywalker wanted to know.
    â€œNot so well,” said Barnett. “At first, the brothers thought I was a plant, a snitch. Between the rape charge and the school-grounds thing, they figured I was looking to join up so I could spy on them and rat them out.”
    â€œTo whom?”
    Barnett laughed. “Funny, that’s what I asked. But I never did get an answer. All I got was a contract put out on me, a price on my head. So I did the only thing I could. I found me a protector.”
    Jaywalker said nothing, but his stare must have said enough.
    â€œNo,” said Barnett, “not the way you’re thinking. I didn’t become somebody’s bitch, or anything like that. When I say I found a protector, I simply mean I allowed myself to be taken under the wing of an older con, a guy who’d been there long enough to have established a rep for himself. Someone the brothers trusted.” Jaywalker nodded.
    â€œHis name was Hightower. Clarence Hightower. He ran the prison barbershop, where the inmates went to get haircuts. He saw I was having a real hard time, and he’d heard about the contract on me. And for some reason he could tell I wasn’t a snitch. So one day he offered me a job cutting hair. I told him I didn’t know the first thing about it. He laughed and said, ‘You think I did when I started? I was an enforcer for a numbers ring. All I knew was how to crack skulls and break kneecaps. You’ll learn.’
    â€œStill, I’d been in enough joints to know that, inside, nothing comes free. Nothing. So I ask him what it was going to cost me. I figured he’d tell me smokes or candyor commissary money, stuff like that. Instead he looks at me and asks what people called me on the outside. ‘AB,’ I tell him. He says, ‘AB, what I’m doing for you is called a favor. Understand? It’s the kinda thing you can’t put a price tag on. But who knows. One day I may need me a favor myself. You just remember that, okay?’ And I said ‘Okay.’”
    â€œAnd that was it?” Jaywalker asked.
    â€œAnd that was it. I knew it might come home to haunt me someday,” said Barnett. “But the way I looked at it, I had no choice. It was only a matter of how long it was going to take before I got a knife stuck into my gut or a razor pulled across my throat. Compared to owing a man a favor? What kind of choice was that?”
    â€œNot much of one,” Jaywalker had to admit.
    Assigned to the barbershop, Barnett spent the first month sweeping up, sorting towels and linens, and keeping track of scissors, combs and Afro picks, which even though they were all plastic and round-tipped, had to be turned in each evening. There were no razors allowed in the shop. And bit by bit, simply by virtue of working for Clarence Hightower, Barnett managed to shed his reputation as a child rapist, school-yard drug dealer and snitch. And though no official word ever came down that the contract on him had been lifted, a time came when he felt safe. Safe being a relative word in prison, of course. After three