among a handful of collected photographs of Charlotte that sheâd gathered for the memorial, a soft knock at the door made her glance at the clock and wonder who was still awake at this wretched hour.
It was Bella. She opened the door wider and allowed theteen to enter. âWhatâs wrong?â she asked, worry in her voice. She couldnât help scanning the teenagerâs thin frame for signs of abuse. Bella had often cut herself before she came to Iris House and Emma worried that she might turn to the destructive habit during times of extreme stress.
Bella tightened her arms around her sides but didnât answer right away. Although Bella knew a lot about things she never shouldâve known, in many ways she was still a frightened girl who needed guidance. It was that vulnerable side that called to Emma. Her hand curled softly as she resisted pushing the errant strand of hair from the girlâs eyes. Bella didnât like to be touched, not even with kindness. Not yet. Emma was still working on that broken aspect of the teenâs psyche with countless hours of therapy.
Bella chewed the side of her lip, clearly wrestling with something but unsure how to coax it free from her own mouth. Emma smiled and gestured. âWhy donât you come and help me with the photos Iâve put aside for Charlotteâs memorial. I could use a second opinion.â
Bella nodded and followed, taking a seat on the edge of the sofa to peer at the photos spread across the end table. She fingered a few, pushed aside others and finally picked one. âThis is a good one,â she offered with a shrug that was a pathetic attempt at showing that she didnât care when Emma knew for a certainty that she cared deeply. Charlotteâs death affected them differently. While Emma felt the weight of responsibility for the womanâs death, Bella likely felt true grief, which was something she was emotionally ill-equipped to handle.
âI didnât talk to that FBI agent,â she admitted in a tight, defensive voice, her gaze cutting to Emma for her reaction.
âThatâs fine,â Emma said, her tone carefully neutral while she continued to sift through pictures. She already knew that,thanks to Chick. âI told you it was your choice.â She looked up briefly. âThereâs no judgment, Bella.â
Bella nodded but a small crease appeared in her smooth brow. âYouâre not mad?â
âOf course not. Ursula didnât choose to speak with him, either,â she pointed out mildly, returning to the pictures. âBut he seems a very nice, professional man. Thereâs no need to be afraid.â
âIâm not afraid,â Bella scoffed with more vehemence than the declaration warranted for the situation, and Emma knew sheâd hit a nerve. She remained silent and Bella seemed to sulk for a moment, dropping the photo in her hand when she realized she was crinkling it. âWhat if I shouldâve told him something? Something that might matter to the case, you know?â
Emma looked up, faint alarm at the teenâs hesitant admission churning the remains of the hastily eaten dinner sheâd consumed hours ago. âSuch as?â she asked.
Bella shrugged, but Emma thought she saw tears sparkling in her eyes before she skewed her gaze away. âI didnât want to say nothing because I ainât a snitch, but now that Charlotteâs dead I figured itâs not snitching. I mean, Charlotte was always real nice to me and we had stuff in common so I didnât want to sayâ¦â
âWhat is it, Bella?â Emma prodded gently, but her palms had begun to sweat. Unease squatted in her belly at the possibilities.
Bella looked up and this time there was no hiding the sheen of tears as she said, âMad Johnny was making Char run drugs again. She tried not to but he caught up to her and he mustâve had something on her because she was real