fucking neighbors.â
Rat looks at Michelle, who is standing beside me, touching my arm. He points his chin toward her. âWhyâd you bring this little bitch?â
âDonât call my girlfriend a bitch, dickhead,â I say flatly.
âI wasnât talking to you, you dumb fuck. Youâre the bitch. Though I bet youâd just love to suck on it, wouldnât you, Michelle?â he says, grabbing his cock for emphasis.
âIâll kill you!â Iâm screaming now and donât care if he has military training or not. Like my man Emo Phillips says, you might mop the floor with me but youâll have trouble getting into the corners. At least thereâs that.
8-Ball and Fred get between us. It feels good to nearly get into a fight. Especially with this asshole. And with quasi-chivalry on the line at that.
âYou both need to leave,â Squirrelly declares.
âBut he didnât do anything,â Michelle says. âRat said he looked like a clown.â
âAm I wrong?â Rat says.
âLook, just leave, man,â Fred says to him.
âLook at his hair! Itâs goddam orange and girl-curly and sticks out in every direction!â
âPlease, Rat.â Squirrelly touches his shoulder.
He stares at her in astonishment.
âFine. But Iâm gonna get you, Bozo.â He points at me, then turns around and goes to the door. He turns again as he walks out and points at me a second time. I give him a finger of my own. The door slams.
âWho wants to do some coke?â 8-Ball asks, breaking the silence.
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Although this is the first time Iâve actually seen coke, Iâve watched enough reruns of Miami Vice with Victor to know it on sight. Michelle is first up to get her line. She sucks it up her nose like a pro with a rolled-up twenty-dollar bill, then sits back on the couch with her head cocked at a ninety-degree angle so as not to let any powder escape. After Squirrelly, Fred, 8-Ball, and some other girl have each snorted a line, 8-Ball tosses the baggie at me.
My head shakes of its own accord. âI donât mess with the hard shit, man. No offense.â
âNone taken,â says 8-Ball, his bony face contorting with the high. âMore for me. But donât say I never tried giving you nothinâ.â He laughs, then sticks two fingers in a glass of water and sucks the liquid up each nostril.
âAre you sure you donât want to try any, honey?â Michelle asks.
âYeah, Iâm sure.â I turn to 8-Ball, whoâs hunched over the table cutting out more lines. âDo you care if I get into that gin, man?â I ask him.
âGo ahead. But you gotta get me a glass.â
As I make our drinks, I yell from the kitchen, âWhy isnât Tab with you tonight?â
âShe had to go to bed early so she could go to a modeling agency in the morning with her mom or some shit.â
âBetter there than being with you,â I mutter. I contemplate hocking up a loog for his drink but decide against it. He isnât half as bad when his little toadie bitch isnât around and heâs not trying to ram his tongue down Tabithaâs throat.
Michelle is back on her knees snorting another line when I return from the kitchen. I sit on the couch and slug my drink, get up and make another. Michelle doesnât so much as look at me. She neverstops talking. Everyone is talking. I canât think for all the goddam talking. I keep drinking.
An hour later Squirrelly and Fred have retired to their bedroom once again and I am more drunk, stoned, and in all other ways fucked up than Iâve ever been. The room is spinning, my head is spinning. A half-full glass of gin slips out of my hand and falls to the carpet. I have to lie down. Thereâs a perfect empty space in the darkened hallway.
Michelle and 8-Ball are still talking gibberish and loudly sucking up lines of white powder as my