Nothing planned. Nothing proper or polite about it.
Incredible .
âWhatâs got you smiling so early?â Nateâs morning-rough voice stroked over her like a soothing caress, bringing her attention to the hard line of his stubbled jaw and the soft amusement in his blue, blue eyes. They were intimately wound together. Arms and legs and bare skin everywhere. It felt goodand, though today they wouldnât be lovers, Payton wasnât about to rush from the bed or give up the warmth of his body, the steady thump, thump of his heart sounding beneath her ear, or the shelter of his arms around her. She couldnât. Not yet.
For now, they were comfortably entwined. Or at least they were until Nate reached down her back with one hand and pinched her bottom.
âHey!â she squeaked, ineffectually trying to pinch back at skin too muscle packed to give.
âThe grin. Tell.â
Inching her bum out of pinching distance, she raised a brow. âSo desperate to feed your ego?â
âMmm, so itâs an ego-feeding grin. Tell me more.â
She took a deep breath, weighing the temptation to share her indecent revelation. Heâd never judged her beforeâ¦but this was different. Telling in a way she wanted him to know but was afraid to reveal. After what theyâd done last night, she might have finally killed the good girl misconception, and owning up to what had her smilingâthe part beyond finally being in his armsâmight negate all the progress sheâd made. Casting a sidelong glance his way, to that devilish smile and waiting stare, the temptation proved too much to resist. Her eyes squeezed shut and she fessed up in a rush of breath. âIâm thinking youâre the first notch in my bedpost.â
There! That wasnât so bad. It was freeing, in fact. Andâ
Her eyes blinked open as Nate froze beside her, every muscle in his body gone taut and his breathing at an abrupt halt.
Her chin pulled back. Not quite the âpartner-in-crimeâ kind of response sheâd hoped for.
He couldnât be insulted . But now that she thought about it, she wouldnât feel great about being described as a notch either.
âYou werenât a virgin.â The words rasped out more plea than question or statement.
Momentarily stunned, Payton could practically feel his cold dread at the thought sheâd saved something so special for him. That the night heâd given her on condition it be casual be so spectacularly significant. That sheâd deceived him.
âNo!â Her hands flew to the sides of her face as she shook her head in vehement denial. âI wasnât a virgin, I promise! I meant ânotchâ like uncommitted. Sex for sexâs sake.â The beginning of her reckless adventure. He didnât need to know how special being with him truly was to her. After today it would never be an issue again. She wouldnât let it be. âDonât panic, please.â
Nateâs relief was a palpable thing, like a rush of air back into the room, the return of pressure with a whoosh.
âI wasnât panicking,â he scoffed, pushing to one elbow on his side. âPretty little princesses donât make me panic. Especially not when they areâ¦â he lifted the sheet for dramatic effect, offering a quick leer at her prone body before meeting her eyes again ââ¦naked.â
Relief washed through her at the ease with which he recovered, but a lingering tension remained and his expression turned serious. Concerned.
âAre you okay about this, Payton?â Catching a wild curl with his finger, he pushed it over her ear. Let his mouth pull into a crooked twist when it sprang free and bounced back in front of her eyes. âWith last night being the only night?â
She took a steadying breath. âI am if we go forward as friends.â
In those first minutes after the kiss became real in the hallway, she