crying now, I still need your help.”
She released me slowly. “I was so scared.”
“I know. Let’s get rid of the silver now and we’ll talk more. It hurts, Scarlett.”
“Oh god,” she said.
“Elisabeth, same thing as before. Everyone get ready. Do not video this.”
“We’re not.”
It took four more times before I got it all out. I screamed a lot. It wasn’t fun.
Finally I lay back on the sofa, dripping in sweat. They tried to feed me, but I waved them away weakly. I looked at Angel. “I am going to fade away for a while. Please don’t be afraid. Cut me loose. Remove the tape. Clean me up. Dress me. Get everyone down here. I want all of you holding me.”
I turned to Elisabeth. “Me on your lap, Scarlett and Angel next to me.” I looked back at Angel. “Then call Lara and she’ll call me back.”
Then I faded away.
* * * *
I was out of it for a while.
“Come on, Little Fox,” Lara said. “Talk to me. Come back to me, Michaela.”
“Water,” I said weakly. There was a straw at my mouth.
“Are you back?” Lara asked.
“Soon. Head hurts.”
“You’re dehydrated,” Elisabeth said. “Drink more water.”
Lara talked softly to me, holding me there, and finally I opened my eyes. I was dressed, cuddling in Elisabeth’s lap, with Angel’s head on my shoulder and Scarlett next to Elisabeth, her head against my back. The other girls were surrounding me, several kneeling on the floor with their heads in my lap.
“I am Alpha,” I said.
“Yes,” Elisabeth said. “You are most definitely Alpha.”
“I love you all. Thank you so much.”
“We are not doing this again,” Elisabeth said. There was weak laughter.
“And I will kill anyone who suggests it,” Lara said. She wasn’t joking.
I rested my head against Elisabeth’s chest. “You all cleared your schedules for a week, and it was only a day. I didn’t do very well.”
“Oh for crying out loud!” yelled Lara. “The tradition is a few minutes of punishment every half hour to hour. You spun for over two hours and laughed it off, and then you let them nearly kill you over a ten-hour period. That’s two weeks compressed into one day.”
“Alpha,” said Scarlett to me. “Shut the fuck up.”
I laughed. “Language, Scarlett.”
“I’m not your student anymore,” she said. “I graduated. With honors, I will remind you.”
“All right. I guess I did okay. I didn’t break, after all.”
“I’m sorry,” Elisabeth said. “You did.”
“I never asked to be ransomed.”
“You gave pack secrets.”
“Did you verify them?”
She froze.
“Cause I’m pretty sure I was coherent, and I don’t recall you verifying them.”
“I know Lara gave you the belt. I was there when you opened it.”
Lara was chuckling in my ear.
“Turn the feed back on,” I said. “Gia. Do it.”
She climbed off the floor and crossed to her computer. She clicked for a minute. “It’s on.”
“Are people watching?”
She clicked some more. “A hundred and twenty four active viewers.”
“Some of them probably walked away. Is it being recorded, too?”
“Yes.”
“Good enough. If you can, set a marker or something at this point. Someone hand me my chopsticks.”
“Damn it!” said Elisabeth.
The women holding me stayed where they were. Gia rose from her chair, rummaged in a bag somewhere, and then she held the chop sticks to me from over Elisabeth’s shoulder.
I looked at them. “Can I see the feed?”
“There are two,” Gia said. “One per camera. One is wide angle, one is close up on you. It was a medium shot earlier, but it’s a close up now.” She brought her laptop over and set it on the coffee table, and I could see myself on her screen. “Or do you want the other one?”
“No, that’s good.” I waved at myself in the camera. “God, I look like shit. But my hair is gorgeous, all matted down and stuff.”
They chuckled weakly.
“Damned fox,” Elisabeth said, “joking like this.”
I