Cole.â
He couldnât stop himself. âYour husband called you Nikki.â
âLicense revoked. And donât change the subject.â She launched herself toward him. âWhat about your SWAT and undercover work? The boysâ club where females are good only for recreation? You lived for it. Traded us for it.â
Her sudden blast of anger caught him off guard. âThatâs not what I wanted.â
She stopped right before him. âOh right. Then why are you on record in our divorce proceeding? I quote, âMarriage? Screw that. Thereâre too many women to fuck and thereâs only one lifetime.ââ
His eyes flashed anger for the first time. âThat was taken down by the duty officer the night I was arrested. I was drunk as a skunk, and Iâd been working undercover in a biker bar. I was still in character.â
âI know what you were doing. I was there. Remember?â
Guilt knifed through Scottâs gut. He remembered. Would never forget it.
âYou werenât supposed toâ¦â He groped for a better beginning. He wanted to explain how jacked-up miserable he had been juggling two lives and knowing he was losing on both ends. He wanted her to know that after she left him heâd staggered under so much regret he could barely function. So many things to say, to admit, to account for.
He heaved his shoulders. âThings change. If youâd let me explainââ
âDonât even go there.â Her eyes, only two feet from his, were throwing off sparks that should have burned him to the ground. âBastard. Rat bastard. For you to come here, after all this time andâandââ
The catch in her throat so appalled her that Cole did an about-face. âGet out.â
âRight.â
Cole waited until she heard the front door close. Then she released Hugo, who bolted past her.
She followed and watched as her partner sniffed every spot where Scott had stood or touched. He was memorizing the scent of the man who had upset her. Too bad she couldnât explain to her partner all the complex reasons why. Especially, the long-absent feelings of familiarity coursing through her the entire time Scott had been here.
When Hugo was done, he came back to her and leaped up to place his front paws square in her chest. She wasnât a small person but Hugo didnât have any trouble planting a big slurpy kiss on her face. His way of saying, I got your back.
âI love you, too.â She leaned her head against his and hugged him tight.
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Working nights was not something her body had ever completely adjusted to. When Cole woke up late in the afternoon, her head felt stuffed with cotton balls and her head throbbed. And then she remembered. Sheâd fallen asleep with tears staining her face.
She was still angry. The emotion beat faintly behind her gritty eyes. But on another level, she felt calm. The confrontation she had longed for and dreaded for two years was behind her. There was just one teeny-weeny little problem left.
She should just admit the hard pathetic truth.
I still have feelings for Scott.
She also hated Scottâs guts. And after what heâd done, hate still topped love.
Cole let out a breath she hadnât even realized she was holding, and scooted off her bed.
She made coffee and toast then brought the items to her dining room table where she sat and looked as objectively as possible at the pictures Lattimore had sent her.
Someone needed to catch the assholes who had done this. Sheâd been asked to be part of that. But what about Scott? How much was seeing him again going to cost her?
She opened her computer and ran him through the law-enforcement background-check system via her police department. He hadnât remarried. Lived in an apartment in a less than desirable part of D.C. After nearly a yearlong gap in his work record he was now listed as a DEA agent, SWAT