I wanted you to have. Iâm not the kind of mother you deserve.â
âDonât say that.â He tightened his arms around her, wishing he could protect her, wishing he could take care of her. âYou have nothing to be sorry for. I just wish youâ¦if I quit school, you wouldnât have to do it anymore.â
She turned and faced him, her eyes and cheeks wet with tears. âI would do anything for you, Victor. Donât you see? Youâre the best thing Iâve ever done. The best thing in my life.â
She cupped his face in her palms. âPromise me youâll stay in school.â She tightened her grip, her gaze on his intense. âPromise me, Victor. Itâs important.â
He hesitated, then nodded. âIâll stay in school. I promise.â
âThank you.â She smiled, but he saw that her mouth trembled. âYou always keep your promises. You always have, ever since you were old enough to make them to me.â She shook her head. âSometimes I wonder how you can be so honorable, coming like you did from Willy and me.â
She made a move to lower her hands; he caught them. âIâll take care of you someday,â he said fiercely. âYou wonât have to put all that crap on your face, you wonât have to work the way you do now. Iâll take care of you,â he said again. âI give you my word on that.â
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âV ictor, darlinâ, Iâm off.â
Santos tore his gaze from the small black-and-white TV on his dresser to glance at his mother. âSee you.â
She hooked her purse strap over her shoulder. âYou going to get up and come give your mama a kiss?â He made a face, and she laughed. âI know, youâre too grown-up for that now.â
She crossed to him, bent and planted a light kiss on the top of his head, then threaded her fingers through his hair. âYou know the rules, right?â
He tipped his face up to hers and arched his eyebrows in exaggerated exasperation. âHow could I not? You repeat them every night.â
âDonât be a smart ass. Letâs hear âem.â
âPut the chain on,â he said in the sassiest voice he could manage. âAnd donât answer the door for anybody. Not even God.â
She rapped her knuckles against the top of his head. âAnd donât leave the apartment. Except if itâs on fire.â
âRight.â
âDonât you look at me that way.â She narrowed her eyes, all traces of amusement gone. âYou think my rules are a big joke. But take it from me, there are some real creeps on the streets. And if the creeps donât get you, the state will. Merry, from down at the club, lost her kid that way. Social Services found out she left him alone at night and took him away.â
âYeah, but Merryâs a doper and her kidâs only six.â He swung his legs over the side of the bed and stood. âItâs not going to happen, Mom. You worry too much.â
âIs that so, Mr. Iâm-fifteen-and-know-everything?â Hands on hips, she leaned toward him. âWhen I was your age, I was damn cocky, too. I sure as hell never imagined Iâd have to make a living by shaking my tits and ass for a roomful of strangers. I didnât even know women like me existed.â
She shook her head, her expression sad suddenly, resigned. âThatâs one of the things life teaches you, darlinâ, one bad choice can screw up your entire life. Remember that the next time you think you know everything.â
Santos knew the mistake she was talking aboutâhooking up with Willy Smith, getting pregnant by him. Her family had disowned her, and Willy had taken to using her for a punching bag. Bad choice, all right. A real doozy.
He swallowed hard. âIâll be careful, Mom.â
âYou do that.â She touched his cheek with her fingertips, lightly, lovingly stroking. âI
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