or the darkest threat possible.
There is power in the keeping of a secret, and power in the revelation of a secret. Sometimes it takes a very wise man to discern which is the path to greater power.
All men desirous of power should become collectors of secrets. There is no secret too small to be valuable. All men value their own secrets far above those of others. A scullery maid may be willing to betray a prince before allowing the name of her secret lover to be told.
Be very chary of telling your hoarded secrets. Many lose all power once they have been divulged. Be even more careful of sharing your own secrets lest you find yourself a puppet dancing on someone elseâs strings.
â The Assassinâs Other Tool, Confidence Mayhen
Iâd not eaten much, but my appetite was gone. I tidied our table. The Fool was either asleep or feigning it perfectly. I resigned myself to silence from him. With some trepidation, I dressed myself in the clothing that Chade had provided for Lord Feldspar. It fit me well enough, though it was looser around the chest and belly than I had expected. I was surprised at how comfortable it was. I transferred a few of the items from one concealed pocket to another. I sat down to put on the shoes. They had more of a heel than I was accustomed to, and extended far past my foot before terminating in upcurled toes decorated with little tassels. I tried a few steps in them, and then walked the length of the chamber five times until I was certain that I could move with confidence and not trip myself.
Chade had a large looking-glass of excellent quality, as much for his own vanity as for the training of his apprentices. I recall one long night when he had me stand in front of it for most of a watch, trying to smile first sincerely, then disarmingly, then sarcastically, then humbly â¦Â his list had gone on and on, until my face ached. Now I lifted a branch of candles and looked at Lord Feldspar of Spiretop. There was also a hat, rather like a soft bag, edged with gilt embroidery and a row of decorative buttons and incorporating a fine wig of brown ringlets. I set it on my head and wondered if it was supposed to wilt over to one side as much as it did.
Chade kept a tinkerâs tray of odd jewelry in the cupboard. I chose two showy rings for myself and hoped they would not turn my fingers green. I warmed water, shaved, and inspected myself again. I had just resigned myself to creeping out of the room under the smelly garments from Lady Thymeâs old wardrobe when I felt a slight draft. I stood still, listening, and at just the right moment I asked, âDonât you think itâs time you entrusted me with the trick of triggering that door?â
âI suppose I will have to, now that you are Lord Feldspar and inhabiting the room below.â Chade stepped around the corner, halted, and then nodded his approval at my attire. âThe trigger is not where youâd think it would be. Itâs not even on this wall. Look here.â He walked to the hearth, swung a brick aside, mortar and all, and showed me a black iron lever. âItâs a bit stiff. Iâll have the boy grease it later.â And so saying, he pulled the lever and the draft was abruptly closed off.
âHow do you open the door from my old room?â Iâd lost count of how many hours Iâd spent searching for that trigger when I was a boy.
He sighed and then smiled. âOne after another, my secrets have fallen to you. Iâll confess, Iâve always been amused by your inability to find that one. I thought that surely you would stumble on it by accident if nothing else. Itâs in the drapery pull. Close the curtains completely, and then give a final tug. You wonât see or hear a thing, but you can push the door open. And now you know.â
âAnd now I know,â I agreed. âAfter half a century of wondering.â
âSurely not half a