Iâm not sure pop videos are really my thing. And anyway, someone sitting on a chair playing the guitar hardly counts as a pop video, even with little birds and love hearts and butterflies . . .â
âStop being such a dork.â All the time I was talking, Dodi was fiddling with the computer.
âAll done,â she said when I finished explaining. âAt the very least it will make him and Flora realize how much they fancy each other.â
âFlora will kill me,â I said. âZach will kill me.
Zoran
will kill me.â
âNot when Zach sweeps her off her feet and declares his undying love, they wonât. Then Flora and Zach will be eternally grateful, and Zoran will actually thank you, because Zach will stop being so tragic.â
That is Dodiâs point of view.
Me, I just hope Flora never, ever sees it.
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TUESDAY, NOVEMBER 26
Mum and Dad left home together early this morning. I was brushing my teeth at the bathroom window and I watched as they got into the car and then just sat there, side by side in the front seats, talking for ages but not looking at each other. Even when Dad leaned over and kissed Mum on the cheek, she just carried on staring out of the window, and Iâm pretty sure she was crying.
âTheyâve gone to the doctor,â said Jas on the walk to school. âI looked in her diary.â
âBut why has Dad gone with her?â I asked. Jas shrugged and said the diary didnât say why.
âIt canât be serious,â Flora said. âDad would be nicer to her if it was.â
âI saw him kiss her,â I reminded her.
âWell, that makes a pleasant change.â Flora never worries about
anything
unless she absolutely has to.
Film club was canceled after school today, so I came home early. The house was dark when I got back and at first I thought that it was empty, but when I went to the kitchen to make some tea the back door was open and Mum was sitting on the veranda, wrapped in a blanket and staring at the garden. I called out to her and she jumped. When she turned around I saw that she was holding a photograph.
âWhat are you doing?â I asked her, and she said, âNothing!â with that smile we all hate because it is so fake. She moved over on the bench to make room for me to sit down. The photograph fell off her lap. It was a picture of Iris.
âOh,â I said, and after that we sat very still and silent. The kettle boiled and I got up to make us both some tea. When I got back the photograph was gone, and Mum had that look people get when they were about to cry but then managed to stop themselves. She took the mug I offered her. I sat on the floor with my back to her chair, and we both watched the garden, which at this time of year is basically muddy and brown except for a few roses still clinging on like nobodyâs told them yet that itâs nearly winter.
âSomething momentous is happening,â Mum said.
I thought of the photograph, and of Iris, and of this morningâs secret doctorâs appointment.
âAre you going to die?â I tried not to let my voice shake. Mum smiled and kissed me.
âIâm not planning on it,â she said.
âSheâs not planning on it?â Jas cried this evening when I told her. âWhat does that even mean?â
I said I didnât have a clue.
âWhat if Floraâs wrong?â Jas asked. âWhat if it
is
serious?â
âIâm sure it isnât,â I said, but I am not like Flora, and neither is Jas. If something is wrong, we would rather know about it.
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WEDNESDAY, NOVEMBER 27
My video has had thousands of hits! I canât give an exact number because people keep looking at it, but Dodi is beside herself with excitement and I would be too if so many people werenât furious with me.
What happened was this: On Monday night, a girl in Tennessee with about a million followers on