that good . . .â
You donât even need to try
, the old line was. Ghetto wisdom. I didnât have to finish the thought because Shine knew just what I meant, and he knew that I knew that he knew. Social codes like this are how people signal their allegiances, and I had learned them well during my long immersion in Chicagoâs drug culture.
âHeâs good with people,â Shine continued, speaking with respect. âKnows how to get them moving. Nigger practically turned around his neighborhood, thatâs what I heard.â
By this, Shine meant that Michael had taken such effective dictatorial control of his drug block that heâd made it both safe (which made his neighbors cooperative) and extremely profitable, all while staying out of jail. In response, I tried to stay positive without endorsing his crimes.
âYeah, heâs successfulâand his kid, Jackie, sheâs going to take over the world. Sheâs five. What an amazing little kid.â
Trying to fill in the silence between small talk, I added, âNew Yorkâs not as friendly as Chicago.â
Shine looked skeptical. âYou like friendly people?â
âSure. Of course. Who doesnât?â
âThis ainât Chicago, my brother,â Shine said. âYou canât get far with friendly out here.â
But then he frowned and looked at me more closely, pondering the mystery of my character for a long, silent moment. Finally, he came to a conclusion. He nodded and lifted his glass to take a gulp of ice. âI can see how you got along with niggers,â he said. âYoudonât seem all that scary, so they canât see you coming. Thatâs how you get âem to tell you all our secrets, ainât it?â
The way he said it, laughing and crunching the ice between his teeth, it came out like the sly compliment of one hustler to another. I couldnât help feeling a momentary pleasure.
âSo what next? Whatâs your plan?â Shine said. âYou want to move into the projects here?â
This had been on my mind since the day Iâd arrived in the city, of course.
What next? What should I study?
The thing Iâd noticed right away was the same thing everybody notices, the special energy of the place. Chicagoâs beauty was wrapped up in its Midwestern sameness, the predictable rhythms of its people, the solid embrace of caste and clan. In contrast, New York seemed like chaos barely held together. I wanted to do something that tapped into that somehow. Even if I could put all the office politics aside, another study of crack gangs trapped in the projects didnât seem the most promising pursuit.
âSo this will be the last time I see you,â Shine said.
âMaybe,â I answered.
We stayed very solemn for a moment, then cracked up laughing. Relaxing another notch, we drifted into a conversation about Michael and the other Chicago characters we had in common, which became the story of how Iâd wandered into the projects one day and got taken hostage by Michaelâs gang. âNext thing I know, Iâm moving inâand seven years go flying by.â
Shine kept his head down, a diamond glittering in his ear. âMichael said you were writing a book,â he said.
In my experience, there was one good way to explain an enterprise like mine to someone like Shine. âEverybodyâs got to hustle,â I said.
Shine nodded solemnly at the tabletop. âEveryone hustles,â he agreed. âEspecially around here.â
So we understood each other. We were good. I went back to my current obsession. âThe city seems too big, too hard to get my hands around. Iâm not sure where to start. Iâm not sure where to hang out. How do I even know where the significant locations are going to be?â
Shine was about to get up to refresh his drink, but the bartender made a motion to stay put; he would bring a drink