Determination to accomplish the mission.
Sten's Mantis schooling had included indoctrination on the various ways to fool any sort of mental testing machine, from the completely unreliable polygraph through the most sophisticated brainchecks of Imperial Intelligence. The key, of course, was to truly believe that what you were thinking or saying was the truth.
This training worked. Coupled with a conditioned, near-eidetic memory, it made Sten mental test-proof.
Let's see now… Shavala should have seen that clotting tank show up… Horror… seen his combat teammates slaughtered… Anger… seen the tank rumble on… More determination… doodle around the tank getting various pieces shot off… Pain and still more determination… hell, the clot should be dead by now. Shock and such.
Sten pulled a corner of the helmet away from his ear and heard the tape behind him click to a halt.
More shock. Pride at being part of this Imperial stupidity.
Sten decided that was enough input, took the helmet off, and stood. He set an expression of sickness and firmness on his face and went out of the room, artistically stumbling just beyond the door.
Sten gasped to the hilltop, then checked his compass and watch. He decided he could take four minutes to recover.
The exercise was a modified version of that military favorite, the Long Run or March. But, typical of Selection, it had a twist.
Candidates were given a map, a compass, and a rendezvous point that they were supposed to reach at a certain time. Once that point was reached, however, there was no guarantee that the exercise was over. Generally the candidate was merely given, by an IP, another RP and sent on his or her way.
The exercise didn't have much to do with pilot training, but it had a lot to do with tenacity and determination. Plus, Sten grudged, it probably showed which beings had learned that their brains were fools, telling the body to quit when the body's resources had barely begun to work.
Again, it was simple for Sten—Mantis teams ran these exercises as recreation.
But it did trim the candidates. Already ten of the thirty-plus candidates in Sten's group had withered and vanished.
Sten, flat on the ground, feet elevated, and in no-mind, heard footsteps.
He returned to reality to see the small woman who on their first day had made the cogent observation about pilots trot smoothly toward him.
Instead of going flat and shutting the systems down, she dropped her pack, went flat, and began doing exercises.
Sten was curious—this was an interesting way to con the mind into going one step farther. He waited until she finished, which added an extra minute to his time.
The downhill side of this part of the course was rocky. Sten and the female candidate—Victoria—were able to talk as they went.
Data exchange: She was a lieutenant in the navy. She was trained as a dancer and gymnast. Successful, Sten guessed, since she'd performed on Prime World. Sten even thought he'd heard of a couple of the companies she'd been with.
So why the service?
A military family. But also, dancing was work. She said being a professional dancer was like being a fish in sand.
Sten found the breath to laugh at the line.
Plus, Victoria went on, she had always been interested in mathematics.
Sten shuddered. While he was competent at mathematics—any officer had to be—equations were hardly something he joyously spent off-duty time splashing around in.
Sten's internal timer went off—it was a break for him. Victoria kept on moving at her inexorable pace.
Sten watched her disappear in the distance and felt very good.
If there was anyone who was guaranteed to get through this guano called Selection and become a pilot, it had to be Victoria.
Sten ducked as the wall of water came green over the boat's bows and smashed against the bridge windows.
The boat swayed, and Sten's stomach did handstands. Shut up, body. This is an illusion. Shut up, head, the answer came back. I am going
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