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the floor, my head nestled in his lap. This was the norm for us. Affection between the three of us was effortless, yet next to impossible with anyone outside our circle.
    “Hello?” I answered, chuckling into the phone, my eyes still glued to the screen.
    “Hi,” replied a voice dripping with sensuality.
    I shot up like someone had lit a match under my ass, smacking Dom in the face in the process. “Hi,” I squeaked.
    “I hope I’m not interrupting anything.” His voice was deep, and slightly raspy with just a touch of southern drawl. Just as I had remembered.
    “You’re not.” Ok, I said that way too fast. I scrambled to my feet, mouthing a half-hearted apology, and dashed to my room, earning more than a few sideways glances from my roommates.
    “I wanted to tell you that you got the job. If you want it.”
    “Oh?” There was more than just a trace of surprise in my voice. “Really? Um, wow.”
    “You sound shocked.”
    “I…I am. I didn’t think… I mean, I only made one drink for you.”
    “It was a really good drink,” he replied with a sexy seriousness that made my tummy quiver.
    I swallowed the whimper in my throat. “Yeah?”
    “Yeah. So…do you want it?”
    “Oh, yeah. Definitely.” I had to wonder if we were still talking about the bartending position.
    “Good.” Blaine was quiet for a long beat, and I imagined him rolling that barbell between his full lips. I listened for the clink of metal against his teeth. “Can you start Wednesday afternoon? I’ll be training you. Is that ok?”
    “Sounds good.” More than good. “Anything else I should know? What should I wear?”
    “We’ve got t-shirts with Dive’s logo on it. I’ll give you a few. Anything for the bottom. Except, um, skirts.”
    “Oh. Are skirts against the dress code policy?”
    I heard him suck in a breath. “No. They are just very…distracting. On you. You distract me.”
    “Is that a bad thing?” Oh, hell. I was flirting. No, no, no. But I couldn’t seem to stop myself. Not when it came to him.
    “Depends.”
    “Depends?” I said in my best innocently naughty voice.
    “If I distract you too.”
    I didn’t know how to respond, and the growing silence was shifting from nervous to awkward. Of course he distracted me. He had distracted my thoughts ever since I walked into Dive teary-eyed and mournful three weeks ago. But there was no way I could tell him that.
    “Ok, well, I guess I’ll see you Wednesday.”
    “Yeah. Goodnight, Kami.”
    “Goodnight, Blaine.”
    I held the phone to my chest after swiping the OFF button, then looked up to find a smirking Angel leaning against my doorframe. I was so busted.

    “So, Kami, how have you been since our last visit?”
    I nodded, fidgeting with a loose thread on my tank top. “Good.”
    “Good? So no irrational fears or meltdowns?”
    I frowned at the grey-clad psychiatrist sitting across from me. Good shrinks were so hard to find, and this was my third since moving to Charlotte. I felt like I could do without them, but Dom was insistent to the point of demanding.
    “Why do my fears need to be irrational?” I snapped.
    Dr. Evelyn Cole raised a brow and scribbled a note on her pad. “Do you think your fears are rational?”
    “I think they’re understandable considering…I’m not saying they’re altogether healthy, but I don’t think they are irrational. I don’t put anyone in danger with them.”
    Dr. Cole scribbled another note. “You don’t put yourself in danger?”
    I looked at her incredulously. “Of course not. If anything, I am careful to a fault.”
    “By isolating yourself.”
    “I don’t isolate myself. I just keep a certain distance from people in order to remain…safe. There are things people do not need to know about me. If they did, I’d be alone anyway.”
    “And Kenneth? Is that why you broke it off with him? Because he was getting too close?”
    “Kenneth let himself fall for someone who is incapable of love. I told him not