girlfriend. While they had been going at it hot and
heavy in the parking lot, they didn't seem quite as interested in each other at
the moment. I could only wonder about that. Then again, I didn't really care.
Well, I did, but I kept telling myself that I didn't. Yes, I had to admit to
myself that I was still attracted to Luke, but he was a no-go. A no-show,
really.
For the remainder of the game, I paid more attention
to Number Fifteen, admiring his body, his athleticism, and his easy camaraderie
with his teammates. He even joked with a few of his opposing teammates. He
seemed like a nice guy, genuinely friendly and easy-going. Still, I couldn't
help but compare the two. What if Greg turned out to be just as big of a jerk
as Luke had? And as much of a disappointment? Did it matter? I wasn't
interested in marrying the guy, just distracting myself once in awhile . If Luke could play that game, so could I.
The game ended with the opposing team winning the
match, and it wasn't long before the crowds began dispersing back toward the
parking lot. My girlfriends and I slowly made our way down through the stands
amid the crowd, carefully watching our step as we were jostled to and fro. Down
below us, I caught sight of Luke guiding his girl-of-the-night by the hand
through the crowd. He didn't look up at me, but I wondered if he could sense
that I was staring down at him. His girlfriend wore a pouty look on her face. I
wondered if they had some kind of disagreement – not that I even cared.
Chapter 7
The next morning, I walked into advanced chemistry,
focusing on yet another upcoming test. I also wasn't sure anymore about my acceptance of Greg’s offer for a date tomorrow evening. After all, I
was still reeling from Luke's rejection, and I wasn't particularly looking
forward to another one.
I had just pulled my notebook out of my messenger bag
that also served as my purse when I noticed a familiar face in the room. Luke
was back. My heart gave a traitorous thump when I spotted him sitting near the
front of the class, not talking to anybody, but staring down at a book on his
desk. Suddenly, he glanced up, looked over his shoulder, and his eyes met mine.
I resisted the automatic urge to send him a smile and instead merely stared at
him and then turned my attention back to my notebook. It took everything I had
in me not to glance at him for the next couple of minutes. I played it cool,
though. After all, what would it say about me if I showed any curiosity or
interest whatsoever in him after the way he treated me?
Throughout class, I felt rather proud of myself that I
had carefully avoided that side of the room, while at the same time, I got the
distinct impression that he occasionally glanced my way. It was disappointing,
really. Luke and I could've been really good together, I thought, but he had
blown it. While I was still undeniably attracted to him, I wanted a
relationship based on more than just sex. Besides, the way he treated me was
awful. I had standards, after all, and just because he didn't live up to mine
didn't mean that I couldn't live up to my own.
The fact that I didn't glance his way once throughout
the remainder of the chemistry class didn't mean to imply that he wasn't on my
mind. In fact, I almost wished he wasn't there. Just knowing that he was in the
same room made me feel uncomfortable, and not just because of embarrassment,
but because of the sexual tension that arose within me. Damn. How could one guy
have such an effect on me, especially one who acted like such a big jerk?
Finally, class was over and I gathered my things and
began to make my way toward the door along with everyone else. As I exited the
room and students dispersed one-way or another, Luke suddenly appeared beside
me.
"Hey," he said.
I didn't look up at him although every nerve in my
body hummed. "Hello," I said, keeping my voice cool. I didn't trust
myself to say anything else.
"Look, Jessica, I…"
I glanced up at him, almost got