response. Susan was usually hesitant to welcome a visitor, reluctant to be confronted with a glimpse of the outside world; so Martie had been given a key almost a year previously.
Steeling herself for the ordeal ahead, she stepped into the kitchen, which was revealed by a single light over the sink. The blinds were tightly shut, and lush swags of shadows hung like deep-purple bunting.
The room was not redolent of spices or lingering cooking odors. Instead, the air was laced with the faint but astringent scents of disinfectant, scouring powder, and floor wax.
Its me, Martie called, but Susan didnt answer.
The only illumination in the dining room came from behind the doors of a small breakfront, in which antique majolica china gleamed on glass shelves. Here, the air smelled of furniture polish.
If all the lights had been ablaze, the apartment would have proved to be spotless, cleaner than a surgery. Susan Jagger had a lot of time to fill.
Judging by the mélange of odors in the living room, the carpet had been shampooed recently, the furniture polished, the upholstery dry-cleaned in place, and fresh citrus-scented potpourri had been placed in two small, ventilated, red-ceramic jars on the end tables.
The expansive windows, which framed an exhilarating ocean view, were covered by pleated shades. The shades were for the most part concealed by heavy drapes.
Until four months ago, Susan had been able at least to look out at the world with wistful longing, even though for sixteen months she had been terrified of venturing into it and had left her home only with someone upon whom she could lean for emotional support. Now merely the sight of a vast open space, with no walls or sheltering roof, could trigger a phobic reaction.
All the lamps glowed, and the spacious living room was brightly lighted. Yet because of the shrouded windows and the unnatural hush, the atmosphere felt funereal.
Shoulders slumped, head hung, Susan waited in an armchair. In a black skirt and black sweater, she had the wardrobe and the posture of a mourner. Judging by her appearance, the paperback book in her hands should have been the Bible, but it was a mystery novel.
Did the butler do it? Martie asked, sitting on the edge of the sofa.
Without looking up, Susan said, No. The nun.
Poison?
Still focused on the paperback, Susan said, Two with an ax. One with a hammer. One with a wire garrote. One with an acetylene torch. And two with a nail gun.
Wow, a nun whos a serial killer.
You can hide a lot of weapons under a habit.
Mystery novels have changed since we read them in junior high.
Not always for the better, Susan said, closing the book.
They had been best friends since they were ten: eighteen years of sharing more than mystery novelshopes, fears, happiness, sorrow, laughter, tears, gossip, adolescent enthusiasms, hard-won insights. During the past sixteen months, since the inexplicable onset of Susans agoraphobia, they had shared more pain than pleasure.
I should have called you, Susan said. Im sorry, but I cant go to the session today.
This was ritual, and Martie played her part: Of course, you can, Susan. And you will.
Putting the paperback aside, shaking her head, Susan said, No, Ill call Dr. Ahriman and tell him Im just too ill. Im coming down with a cold, maybe the flu.
You dont sound congested.
Susan grimaced. Its more a stomach flu.
Wheres your thermometer? Wed better take your temperature.
Oh, Martie, just look at me. I look like hell. Pasty-faced and red-eyed and my hair like straw. I cant go out like this.
Get real, Sooz. You look like you always look.
Im a mess.
Julia Roberts, Sandra Bullock, Cameron Diaztheyd all kill to look as good as you, even when youre sick as a dog and projectile vomiting, which you arent.
Im a freak.
Oh, yeah, right, youre the Elephant Woman. Well have to put a sack