Suddenly what had been meant as a fun shopping trip felt horrible. She felt horrible. Her shoulders slumped.
âStay here, Phoebe,â said Mallory decisively. âLet me go pick something out for you. I bet Iâll have better luck.â
âMaybe I should have surgery.â
âDonât even think that! Youâre fine. Besides, your mother would never let you. Actually, neither would I.â
âI donât really mean it.â
âGood. Stay here. Iâll be back in a few minutes.â
âDonât you ask that salesclerk!â
Mallory didnât answer as she shut the door behind her. Alone, Phoebe looked again at herself in the mirror. But it was Mallory she saw in her head. Her friend Mallory.
Her gorgeous friend.
Mallory had changed so much in the last few years. At five eleven, she now towered over Phoebeâs five two. And Mallory, not Phoebe, was today the girl that other people noticed when they were together in public. Often people even thought Mallory might be a model, which was not so much because she was tall and pretty as it was because she was striking and confident and held herself well. Her long fall of silky hair, ivory skin, and oval, deep-set eyes didnât hurt either. It was strange to compare Malloryâs current grace and style and beauty to the defiant, plain-faced ragamuffin she once had been.
Phoebe faded away next to Mallory now, and she knew it. In part, this was because of her decision last year to wear only black clothing. It wasnât really a goth look, because of Phoebeâs thick, reddish brown hair, soft gray eyes, and scattering of freckles, and also because she couldnât be bothered with much makeup. But it also had the effect of making Mallory stand out as the sophisticated, put-together, worldly one.
Phoebe didnât mind, actually. She got enough attention in the world already, when people heard her last name. âThis is one of your ways to try to fade into the background and not be noticed,â Mallory had observed to Phoebe about her clothing.
âNo, itâs just what makes me feel comfortable,â Phoebe had said. âSo please, Mallory, donât give me that lecture about standing up for myself again.â
âThat lectureâ was something that Mallory trotted out occasionally, and which Phoebe had come to find slightly annoying. But she knew Mallory meant well.
And Phoebe had to admit to herself now that she had sort of wanted an amazing bra. She had wanted to believe the ads sheâd seen about this one particular miracle bra and how it could change your life.
Make you sexy. Make you feel delicious. Make boys notice.
Oh, well. Phoebe rolled her eyes ironically at herself. She took off her shirt and the miracle bra that had been so terrible on her. She put her own bra on and sat down on the bench in the corner of the dressing room while she waited for Mallory to come back.
It was a good thing she had, too, because it was a long time, twenty minutes at least, before Mallory returned, carrying a single bra on a little hanger.
âThere you are.â Phoebe jumped up. âWhy didnât you answer your cell phone? I was just about to come out and hunt you down.â
âSorry.â Mallory sank down almost heavily on the bench that Phoebe had just vacated. She handed the bra to Phoebe.
âThis is it?â Phoebe said. âThis is what took you, like, half an hour of searching to find?â
âYes.â Mallory leaned her head back against the wall and closed her eyes.
âHey. Are you okay?â
âIâm a little tired, I guess. I didnât sleep well last night. Try on the bra, Phoebe. I think itâs really cute. I think itâs just right for you.â
Phoebe looked again, dubiously, at the bra. It was beige and lacy, and she supposed it was pretty, but it was understated and it didnât have any of the underwire or padding that absolutely