price to pay at the end of the day, and it will be a heavy
one.
First, what you view today will stay in your mind a long, long
time—maybe forever. There’s an old saying: “It takes twenty
seconds to look at a
Playboy
and twenty years to forget what you
saw.” I can still remember the nude spread of Suzanne Sommers in the
surging mountain stream as if it were yesterday. I still remember the short,
full-bodied Asian girl standing nude in the wheat field in
Gallery
after she won the “Girl Next Door Contest.” I can still see
the nude
Playboy
model cloaked in a clear plastic raincoat as the
shower cascaded over her. Every detail, from the color and cut of her hairstyle
right down to the curvature of her spreading thighs are imprinted in my brain.
I guess the old saying is wrong. I saw those images twenty-
three
years
ago, and I still haven’t forgotten.
Second, we pay the price
whether we know it’s coming or not. I’ve watched a ton of gory
movies in my day, but few screams in those films have matched Lampwick’s
shriek of raw terror when his hands were turned into hooves. He didn’t
see it coming. If you think the law of reaping and sowing has been suspended
during your teen years, then Satan gleefully uses this to his advantage. He
does everything in his power to hook you sexually before marriage.
Maybe you aren’t concerned. Maybe you think God will forgive you and
that everything will be over once you marry. He’ll forgive you, all
right, but it’s not over. Sin comes with inescapable consequences that
follow you. You’ll have to pay the price at the same toll bridge as the
rest of us. Jim told us this:
I’ve been a Christian since the
age of nine, and I’ve been sexually active since I was twelve. Now
I’m in my late twenties, and I’m on the Internet constantly viewing
the worst kinds of pornography. The lustful thoughts and acts will one day
destroy me if I can’t find a way to control it. Though I’m a
Christian, it’s always two steps backward and one step forward due to my
sexual sin. I regret the things I do but then go right back to them. I never
can focus my extra energy on Him, no matter how desperately I desire it.
Here’s what Tom, a college student, said:
I’ve been
struggling with sexuality for over a year now. I had a longtime girlfriend in
high school that I made love to for a couple of years. Since we broke up,
I’ve longed for another girlfriend, but I haven’t found anyone,
which has been frustrating. So frustrating that my feelings for girls have
turned primarily to lust. I’m really ashamed of the things I do and think
about, and I’m often ashamed to face God. I don’t know how
I’ll ever get free.
Tanner says he’s addicted to
pornography:
It began when I was in high school, and it chases me
through the years. I’ve tried to pray and read my Bible, but because of
my sin, I have no desire to do these spiritual disciplines. I’m desperate
and need help. I’m studying to become a pastor, and I’m close to
ordination, but I feel convicted and guilty. My deepest desire is to serve God
and be a man of God, but I don’t know what to do. I cannot get
free.
And Derrick feels as though he’s living like a public
saint and a private sinner:
The hypocrisy is ripping me apart, and the
absence of God is like a living hell for me. I need help. I’m dying on
the inside. I just don’t know what to do or where to go. I don’t
live for God, I don’t witness, and I don’t pray. People say that
the definition of hell is “eternal separation” from God. I feel
that I have that right now, so I guess I’m in hell!
The end of
the day at Adventure Island has arrived for these men, and they struggle
against binding cords like donkeys pulling coal cars through dark mines, day
after draining day. Some of you already feel the cords wrapping you tighter and
tighter.
As the cords tighten, you struggle and struggle, and you