when they werenât touching it.
Maybe thatâs what Cadeâs issues with the spacesicks cooked down to: touching. Their hands were on her now, as she walked down the center aisle. They prodded at her from all directions, fluttered their palms on her shoulders. Cade had never liked hands unless they were fitted to the coolness of strings and frets. But she needed the spacesicksâ help, so she let them have the warmth of her shoulder, the rough grain of her hair. She wondered if, to them, it would seem like a fair trade. But when they stopped whispering her name, it became clear that they wanted more.
âWhat are you going to play for us?â Hug-stains asked, gripping her arm.
âYes, yes,â the girls with the hips said.
âPlay!â
Cade had forgotten that she had Cherry-Red. All of a sudden its weight announced itself at the end of her arm. It was a good thing, really. If Cade had left it in the bunker it would be one more left-behind part of her life on Andana.
âPlayplayplay,â the spacesicks said, some of them soft, some of them screaming. She hadnât played since the night in Club V, when her head had emptied out like the bar after the barking of last call. She wasnât sure what it would be like now, to piece together a song without the Noise that had driven her to do it in the first place.
And there was something sharp-edged and dangerous about playing at the spacesick bay, with no one to keep the fans back if they loved the music a little too much. As much as she hated Mr. Smithjoneswhite, all of his arms did have their uses.
âOne question,â Cade said. âBefore I play.â
âOf course,â an old man said, like he was damp at the notion that she needed to ask about asking.
âSpace,â she said. The bodies around her sucked in breath and hissed it out. âIf you wanted to get back thereâfor some reason, Iâm not saying you wouldâbut if you wanted to get back to space, what would you do about it?â
The room ripped apart into too many answers and the moans of the ones who didnât want to answer at all. At the end of the hangar, the pretend nurse raised her thin, old- before-their-time eyebrows.
âWhy?â begged an old woman whose eyes had gone so glassy, they looked almost white. âWhy would you ever want to go there?â
âSpace is beautiful,â Hug-stains said, âbut it doesnât give a dreg.â
âStay here with us,â the dark-haired girls cooed.
âStay here.â
âYes, stay.â
They put hands on her with abandon nowâon her arms, her back, her sidesâholding her down like they could keep her planet-bound. Cade turned in a tight circle, but she couldnât brush them off without blasting through, hurting someone.
âI have to go,â Cade said, but she wasnât sure if she meant up to space or rocketing out the door.
âDonât . . . you should stay . . .â
Cade wondered if the spacesicks were right. The scientists had seemed to think she couldnât come down with spacesick because she was entangled. But how could the scientists know that for sure? Cade had spent two years on Firstbloom, not a lifetime.
More spacesicks moved in close. Cade eyed the door through the cracks in the crowd, but the pretend nurse stood there, ticking her fingers against her crossed arms, looking at Cade like she had earned this.
Bodies blocked Cadeâs skin off from the air. Her heartbeat kicked out of time.
And that heartbeat was like a call that Xan answered without a secondâs pause. He was with her, in her mind, sending her the focus she needed to face the spacesicks and give them an answer.
âIâm going to save someone,â Cade said, unsticking their hands one by one. âIâm going. So you might as well tell me what you know.â
The spacesicks kept at her, repasted themselves. Xan pressed into