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foggy to think. I do not want to think. I manage to drift into a restless nap, and I can hear the music from the bar die down. I hear voices later in the night, only bits and pieces. I think it is Jax and Rusty, talking about me. Saying that I could stay, my parents were not home. Then, I feel a blanket trail over me and I fall into deeper warmth.
    I wake sometime during the early hours of the morning; the night sky is still pitch black out. I feel a hand trail over my face in a gentle caress. I open my eyes; only a small lamp is on, shining just enough light for me to see it is Jax.
    “Hey,” I croak. “Is something wrong?”
    “You fought for me.”
    I move, so my elbow props my head up. “I am sorry about that Jax. I never meant to cause a problem.”
    “No girl ever fought for me like that.”
    “It’s called the green eyed monster pirate; surely you have seen it before?”
    “Nah, the girls around here know their place and don’t fight for my attentions. My wife…well she loved herself more.”
    “No one ever fought for you?”
    “Nope.”
    “Well, I am flattered that I got to be the first.”
    “Why did you do it?”
    “I know it was stupid. I just could not get my head around the fact that because I was not ready, you would just go and take another.”
    “I have other girls, you know that. I also told you to be careful not to fall for me.”
    “It’s not about falling for you Jax; it is about wanting something you can’t have.”
    “That’s where you are wrong. You can have me, if you want me baby girl.”
    His voice is soft and luring. I shiver and pull the blanket up higher. “I know that now. I just do not know…if I can share. So maybe it’s better if I don’t.”
    “Right now, I have no interest in looking elsewhere. I am quite content with you.”
    This surprises me. “You are? Then why were you kissing that girl?”
    “I kiss girls Jade; I like the feeling, and it is just my way of telling them I think they are beautiful. I had no intentions of taking her to bed.”
    “You thought she was beautiful?”
    “It’s a statement.” He smiles.
    He touches my cheek, then brings my face closer to his and kisses me very softly.
    “You are so confusing, you know that?” I whine.
    “I know.”
    “It’s hard for me to accept all this after a few days. I feel like I am crazy, being so involved with somebody I hardly know. You could be a serial killer, and I would be jumping right in…”
    He laughs. “I am not a serial killer darlin.”
    “Well I certainly hope not, because I would fight you. I wouldn’t be one of those lay down and accept my death types of girls.”
    “I have no doubt about that.” He murmurs into my hair. His breath on my neck makes me shiver.
    “So, why are you here?”
    He shrugs. “I said I would talk with you, and I am.”
    “It’s like…two am.”
    “You’re right, it is. Do you want me to go?”
    I think about it, but my answer is instant. “No.”
    He presses his lips to mine, bringing me into a slow, deep kiss. I moan and let him slide his body onto the couch next to mine. It is only then, I realize he is naked. I gasp and shuffle backwards, only to meet the back of the couch, which promptly shoves me back forward.
    “You’re naked.”
    He chuckles. “And?”
    “Oh Jax, I am not ready yet.”
    “But you’re not saying no?”
    “No. I want to try it with you, just not tonight.”
    “That’s ok baby girl, we can play in other ways.”
    “Whoa, what?”
    He kisses me again, sliding his hands up my shirt until he meets my bra. With skilled fingers, he unhooks it and it slides it off. He reaches around, taking my nipple into his fingers and rolling it gently. The sensation is quite delightful. He deepens his kiss as he rolls my nipple, making me gasp and squirm. Suddenly, he moves it off and yanks at my underwear. I feel nervous, grasping his hand to stop him.
    “What are you doing?”
    “I am not going to hurt you.”
    He shoves my hand away