about that.â
âIs it catching?â Like measles, or mumps, which would explain why he couldnât go see her. When people had things other people could catch, they had to stay by themselves, except for whoever looked after them. Who was looking after his mother? Sheâd be scared if it was strangers.
âNo, itâs not that kind of sickness, either. Honestly, Roddy, it really is that she gets too happy sometimes and then she gets way too downhearted. You know that yourself, I know you do. But itâs hard to fix because the doctors donât understand as much as they do when itâs just something in the body thatâs not right.â
Wouldnât it make his mother happy to see him?
Didnât she miss him?
âWhereâs your mother?â kids at school asked.
âIn the hospital. Sheâs sick.â They treated him nicer, like they were impressed. Teachers, too, nobody got impatient when he didnât know the answer to an arithmetic question or stumbled when he was reading out loud in class. He kind of liked that part of it, and tried to keep looking brave.
From the drawer of the dining room sideboard where photos were kept, he sneaked a couple of pictures: one of her and him in the park, the other of her and him and his dad in front of the Christmas tree. He hid them under his sweater until he could get upstairs and stick them under his mattress. After that he could take them out all he wanted, as long as his dad and grandmother were safely downstairs. He wasnât sure why having them close should be a secret, but it was. He stared and stared at her face. She was laughing in both of the photographs, and when she laughed, her mouth was the biggest part of her face. He wondered if he took the pictures because he might forget exactly what she looked like. He hoped not.
âDoes Dad see her?â he asked. âDoesnât she want to see me?â
He was pretty sure the answers would be yes and yes of course , and so they were. âYour father has been twice,â his grandmother said, âbut sheâs still quite sick so they donât really think itâs a good idea. And yes, of course, she wants to see you, she misses you, but sheâs not ready for visits.â
Who was the they ? There were people he didnât even know who got to say not just what he did, and his mother did, but what his dad did, too. They must be very big and important. If he didnât know them, how could he know if they were good people, or if they really cared, or if they were doing awful things to her? Like on TV when important people did bad things to other people for no special reason.
âWill she come home sometime?â he asked in despair. He no longer imagined tomorrow , but he wanted to know a day would arrive and there sheâd be, carrying a suitcase because sheâd have needed a lot of stuff to stay away for so long, and sheâd be laughing on the doorstep, swooping her arms around him, her mouth the biggest part of her face.
âWell, theyâre certainly trying. Theyâre trying more new medicines, so weâll just have to wait and see how it goes.â He hadnât expected that. He wouldnât have asked if heâd imagined getting an uncertain answer like that.
He came home from school and there was a for sale sign on the lawn. His father said, âRoddy, weâve decided we need to make a few changes.â His grandmother hugged him and said, âYou know, poor Buster, Iâve left him far too long with the neighbours. Heâll be so happy to see us again.â She said, âYou can take anything of your own that you want. Whatever makes you feel right at home.â
It was a matter of money, his dad explained. Heâd be selling the house and a lot of their things because there were new bills he hadnât expected and there was still a big mortgage on this place. âWhatâs a mortgage?â was