straight up. He looked quick at my headlights, glaring. Not knowing it was me. He clicked off his phone and stood, chest a little out and shoulders back. Hands loose by his sides and arms away from his body. Tough. I turned off the headlights and then he recognized Birdâs car. But he was still frowning.
âWhat are you doing here?â Heâd gotten to the unrolled window before I even opened the door.
âI justââ
He made a mad-sounding noise. âDonât get out.â He pointed at me through the windshield as he moved around the front of the car.
âI didnât know what to do,â I told him when he got in. âThey found out we were never at the QT. And so many other questions. If I canât call you, how am I going to know what to say?â
âBack out. Drive. We canât be here.â
âDee, what didââ
âI said we canât be here. My mom, you know?â And I did know. His mom had a temper worse than his fatherâs. Dee was always getting in fights with her. Iâd heard a few on the phone. One time he had this huge bruise on his back from when sheâd thrown a hair dryer at him. Which I could relate to.
âLetâs just drive,â he said.
I backed out, not knowing where I was going. He pointed me along a few streets and then onto a dark road that passed by a post office. It dead ended at this science fictionâlooking building surrounded by trees. There was a FOR LEASE sign in the grass out front. It was spooky, but at least we were alone.
âThey asked me about Saturday,â I started again. âWhere we went. I had to tell them.â
âWhat, exactly, did you say?â
âWe went to the movies, like you and me said. The purple oneâway out.â
âYouâre rightâthatâs the one we go to.â Finally there was a little smile in his eyes, pleased with me. Proud.
âThey asked me about where we ate. I said there was aMcDonaldâs. But I didnât exactly say we went in. Just that it was there.â
âThat was smart of you.â
Relief and warmth gushed over me. But it didnât solve everything.
âDid you say anything else?â he wanted to know.
âWell, I mean, the gym. But thatâs where you went, so.â
I saw the muscle in the corner of his jaw bulge, once.
âAnything else?â He was staring out the windshield now, not at me.
âWell, I donât know what Bird said yet.â
His mouth was tight. âShe donât know shit.â
âNo. Youâre right. But, Dee, they had aâa letter.â
He turned to me, brows together.
I tried not to choke up. My angel. Forever. âIt was . . . it was in your handwriting. To . . . to . . . another girl.â
He looked away again. âThatâs old.â
âThey found it at the house. The house where . . . I mean, they were looking inside and they found it and . . .â
âI told you, thatâs old. She donât have nothing to do with us.â
âBut Dee, it was her dad ! I saw it on the news!â
I was trying not to make him get angry at me for bringing her up, for not trusting him, but I was so desperate for answers it was impossible to keep from raising my voice.
All he needed to do was say again that it really was over with him and her. To fold me in his arms and tell me he was sorry I was scared. That there was . . . some other reason heâd done what he did to her dad on Saturday. A coincidence. Or, like Kenyetta had said, it was just someone his gang needed to get rid of, that was all. Not anyone who had to do with him and her. And me.
Instead he grabbed the top of my arm and pulled me to him. âListen to me. You donât need to know anything about that. Thatâs old business. You understand? All you know is, I picked you up on Friday, we hung out, stayed together on