The metalworking class I wanted to take (easy A for me for sure, and those kids got to help build a sculpture in the quad) was all filled up. Mr. Rankin was always trying to get us to think about stuff like the little heads on quarters. That dude was all right, but as far as I was concerned, coins were just money.
And money was what I needed to help my grandparents out. Theyâd done so much for me already. They were the ones who found out I could get a football scholarship to Haverford Friendsâthat was after my boy Diego got arrested for boosting cars. They said I had to think of myself and my opportunities.
I didnât want to leave my boys in North Philly, but even I had to admit that I didnât have much of a future if I stayed at Thomas Janson High. The kids there carried guns, and we didnât even get books unless the teachers paid for them. The budget for Philly schools like Janson was getting cut every year, and every year they took something else away. There were no nurses, no gym class, no milk. At Haverford Friends I had a computer, a college counselor, crazy shit like philosophy classes, squash courts, and couscous for lunch. I mean, HF students actually got on vans to give out soup to guys that lived in my neighborhood. I was lucky to be here, I guess, but if anyone ever thought Iâd get used to a place like this, they were crazy. I just had to survive it.
And I almost didnât. Just as I passed, the door to the dressing room opened, clocking me in the face.
âOh. Sorry.â I covered my forehead and nose where the wood made contact, and I could feel it getting red. Donât know why I apologized.
Maybe because it was Dakota Cunningham behind the door. Yeah, I knew her name. All the girls at HF looked alike to me, but Dakota had a little Jennifer Lawrence in herâat least in the eyes and butt. Sometimes in Design class I would squint and pretend. She had it going on and she knew it. Everyone did. Iâd heard some guys on the team talking about her. She had a boyfriend, Dylan Sanders, who sheâd been with since freshman year, and they still hadnât had sex, according to Dylan. The hottest prude in school , one dude on my team said. Maybeâs she just not feeling it , I wanted to say, but didnât. Maybe whale-belt-wearing golf club dudes ainât her thing .
âThatâs okay,â she said quickly. She reached up and pulled on her hair, twisting it to the side. Iâd seen her do that a lot in class. Then she wiped around her mouth.
I noticed her face looked kinda flushed and she seemed a little embarrassed or something. Or maybe it was me that was embarrassed.
âThat was a good assembly,â I said. Even though it hadnât been. All the kids were going bananas because they were getting their activities cut. Welcome to my world. No money, no fun.
âUm, thanks?â Then she gave me the side-eye, all suspicious. âAre you being sarcastic?â
âNo, no,â I stuttered. Had I pissed her off? âI just meant, you handled it well.â
She paused, looking me up and down like I was making fun of her.
âI really didnât. But I didnât have a choice. Those people? They have no idea what itâs like, to be up there, trying to put a happy face on terrible news, trying to make everyone feel better about everything when really thereâs no wayâoh, never mind. I could go on forever.â
Clearly. She was babbling. But she seemed upset, and I was tired of feeling invisible. If she wanted to talk, I was happy to listen. âSo you think itâll stay this way?â
âI really donât know,â she said. âI mean, Iâm not the one to ask.â
âItâs bad, huh?â
âYeah.â She sighed and then looked at me as if seeing it was me, Benny, for the first time. Then she whipped her bag over her shoulder. âI better get back to class.â
âOkay,â