âIâve thought enough to know you are going to have to tell me considerable more about this matter before I agree to do anything. I do, however, give you full permission to talk to Norris or Ben. Iâll agree to the money. Itâs the rest of it Iâve got to know about. They may not be so picky.â
âJusta, I done told you I donât want Ben nor Norris to know about this.â
âWhy not?â
He looked kind of pained. Then he said softly, âBecause . . . well, because thereâs some parts to the business that might shame me in their eyes. And it could hurt them.â
âBut not me, huh?â
He said slowly, âYes, the same for you. But youâre different, Justa. Youâre tougher, stronger.â He looked over at me. âUnderstand, I ainât anxious for you to know this neither. But Iâm betwixt the devil and the deep blue sea. This matter has got to be handled anâ there ainât no one else. Iâd do it if I was able. Comes to it, I might try. Me anâ Tom Butterfield.â
âWell, if you want to try it that way itâs fine with me.â
He looked over at me.
I said, âBut if you want me to do it, especially under them damn silly conditions you set out yesterday, then you are going to have to tell me a hell of a lot more. Last thing I heard out of you was that you stole the money. That has been pretty steady on my mind, as it would yours if Iâd told you such a thing. I have one hell of a hard time seeing Howard Williams stealing the sweat off a maverick calf, much less another manâs money. You are going to have to tell me the straight of that, Howard. If it shames you, well, then so be it.â
He looked out across the pasturage for a long time, no doubt seeing the herds of cattle in the distance, the herds that had slowly been upgraded from the native, all-bone, horse-killing, man-killing, wild-as-hell Longhorns to the manageable beef cattle weâd crossbred from whiteface and Hereford strains. He must have been looking back a lot of years to how it was when heâd come to this very range some forty years ago. Finally he turned and looked at me. âIs that the way of it?â
I nodded. âYes. Unless you want to forget the whole matter. Iâm sure as hell willing.â
But he shook his head. âNo, no, I canât do that. I was pretty down yesterday and I will be again. And one of these days I ainât going to come back up like I done today. Iâm just gonna keep on going down until Iâm six foot under. And I donât want that dirt to hit me in the face with this misdeed on my conscience.â
âAll right. Iâm listening.â
He squinted his eyes and looked far off again, like he was still going back, and not just in his mind. âYaâll never heard me speak much about Charlie Stevens, did you? About the early days, I mean.â
âNever heard you speak about him at all. Mainly just about Buttercup. May have been one or two others you mentioned, but it seemed like it was just you and Buttercup got the start on the place.â
âWell it was Tom Butterfield and me on the one start. But what I never told you boys was there was two starts made on this ranch. Tom helped me on the second one, but as a hired hand. Of course you know thatâs why I keep him on around here as our cook. Even if he canât cook. But heâs a proud man. Wonât take wages without doing a dayâs work.â
âWe ainât talking about Buttercup, weâre talking about this here Charlie Stevens.â I could see he was reluctant to come to his subject and had gone off on a false lead. âYou said something about there was two starts on this place.â
He cleared his throat, looking uncomfortable. âMe anâ Charlie grew up together in Georgia. Course I guess you knew our family started out in Georgia.â
âI knew you did, but this is
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