hand just a little
bit they would be touching…
No , he told herself firmly . I’m not
going to push it yet. Wait until she’s ready. They’d already made a lot of
progress, much more than he’d expected considering that they hadn’t even signed
the contract yet. He didn’t want to screw it up.
“So what are your plans for the future
now?” Callie asked. The chilly breeze tugged at a lock of her wavy brown hair,
and she tucked it behind an ear, exposing a succulent-looking earlobe. He
didn’t know why, but he’d always been crazy about her earlobes, always liked to
tease them with her tongue and teeth as she writhed and whimpered in his arms.
“I mean, did you really intend to come back and start writing romances?”
Brendan chuckled, shaking his head. “I
didn’t really have anything in mind, honestly. I just wanted to get the fuck
away from everything for a while, just hunker down and try to heal. I found
that writing about my issues helped clear my head space, and I did that for
months, just doing yoga and reading books on philosophy and writing in
journals.”
Callie’s jaw dropped. “You, doing yoga?
Shut up.”
“It’s true, swear it on my mother’s
grave,” he said, holding up his hands. It was a serious oath, both his parents
having died when he was barely a teenager. “It helps ground me, plus it’s
fucking great for strength and flexibility.”
Callie laughed. “Yeah, I know that. I was
telling you that all the time, back when I tried to get you to do it with me.”
“Are you still practicing?”
“Every morning.”
“Maybe we should do it sometime,” he
suggested. “You show me your tadasana and I’ll show you mine.”
“Maybe,” Callie agreed, laughter in her
voice and sparkling her eyes.
They reached a small gazebo sitting by
the water, and Brendan led Callie inside, hopping up the few steps and then
reaching down to offer her a hand. She slipped her palm in his, and the slide
of her soft skin against his sent a jolt through him that went straight to his
cock.
Damn , he thought. So this is what
abstinence does . Never in his life had holding someone’s hand made him so
damn horny.
“Thanks,” Callie said softly, releasing
his hand so she could settle herself down on one of the bench seats. They had a
perfect view of the lake from here, which now reflected only a dull orange from
the sky, the setting sun having disappeared from view. They stared out at the
picturesque scene in silence for a few moments, their bodies close enough that
Brendan could feel Callie’s body heat. Her unique fragrance surrounded him,
making him draw even closer to her, until they were nearly touching.
“So.” Callie broke the silence. “How did
you segue from writing in your journal to writing romance?” She looked up at
him, a playful smile on her lips. “And don’t tell me it was just because you
wanted to get back into my pants. Nobody writes a book that good just so they
can get some nookie.”
Brendan grinned. “If you really believe
that, then you don’t know just how far a man will go for sex with the right
woman. But in all seriousness,” he said, his smile fading a little, “It started
as a love letter… to you.”
Callie’s eyes widened. “A love letter?”
He nodded. “I found myself thinking of
you a lot when I came back. Thinking of how I’d hurt you, how I’d tossed you
aside to spare my own feelings because I felt that it would be inevitable that
we’d break up because of my music career anyway.” He stared out at the lake,
not seeing the water, but Callie’s tear-streaked face from the night he’d
thrown her out of his life. Guilt twisted in his heart like a knife. Don’t get
me wrong.” He looked her in the face, wanting her to see the truth in his eyes.
“Don’t get me wrong, I wasn’t exactly celibate since we’ve been apart, but I
found myself always comparing the women I was with to you, and they were always
lacking in some way.”
“No