flesh? Would he be able to translate Pfeffer’s black book? Had Pfeffer left him any messages to deliver in person? Would he be too old and decrepit to count on for any real help?
Will and I squandered the first hours playing cards with Mickie (“You cheated!” “Did not!”) and drinking copious amounts of the free soft drinks offered every hour or two. Mick upgraded her beverage to wine as we crossed the Mississippi, and she drifted off to sleep a few hundred miles west of the Atlantic, lulled by the roar of the engines and the whine of a hundred headsets tuned to different movies.
Will didn’t really fit in the tiny economy seat wedged between me and his sister. Every time his leg drifted over to Mickie’s side, she’d awaken with a start, snarl at her brother, and shove his leg back. I tried to think of a non–awkward way to say to Will, R est your legs against mine .
Across the aisle, a young couple returning to France folded into one another so completely that I couldn’t tell where one body began and the other ended. Comfort travel in the coach class. I glanced over at Will beside me, stiff and awkward, holding himself within the imaginary boundaries of his middle–seat.
I curled my knees up, collapsing them against the wall at my left. “Hey,” I said to Will, pointing to the space in front of me. “Stretch out already. You look ridiculous all pretzeled in your seat.”
“You sure?” he asked.
“Unless you got a way to fold your legs in thirds,” I replied. “Besides, I like the fetal position.” I hugged my arms around my knees.
Will grinned and thanked me, easing his long legs into the space where my feet had been a moment earlier.
“Oh, man,” he said, “You have no idea how good that feels. It’s like they built this plane for under–nourished pre–schoolers.”
Mickie mumbled in her sleep and shot an elbow into Will’s ribs.
“No respect for my personal space even when she’s asleep,” Will whispered, gently replacing her arm. “Sir Walter offered to upgrade our tickets to First Class, and Mick said no.”
I raised my eyebrows.
“She takes stubborn to new heights,” said Will.
“I thought you guys were passing him off as your rich French uncle.”
“Maybe he’s feeling the recession.” Will yawned hugely. “I think I might be able to sleep now. How much longer?”
I consulted my cell. “Five and a half hours.”
Will’s eyes settled to half–mast. “Mmmm.” He looked comfortable now that his legs had somewhere to rest. His eyes drifted shut.
My eyes followed the curve of space between us, a pathway of places where we didn’t touch, where our bodies might intersect but didn’t. Will’s breathing settled until it matched his sister’s.
My reading light cast an industrial white glow about me. Most other passengers had turned theirs off. I might have been the only person on the flight still awake. I should have drunk Sprite instead of Coke. Sighing, I pulled Helga’s book from my bag and started flipping pages. Unfortunately, in the past three weeks, I’d begun to admit that we’d stolen something utterly useless. It was a book of names and dates and crisscross lines with no hint of a story or confession of evil schemes. I’d recognized no names so far except for “Napoleon” and a couple of “Helisaba’s” like from Pfeffer’s book, but nothing remotely useful had turned up. We’d undertaken that trip to UC Merced and exposed our underbellies with nothing to show for it.
Beside me Will twitched and mumbled something incomprehensible. His right side pushed up against his sister, but she was finally too crashed out to care. Another twitch and a small shift and now his cheek pressed into my shoulder, his legs articulating a curve around the front edge of my chair. I ached for how his hand would feel pressed into my hand. For his lips melting with mine. For wishing his head resting upon my shoulder meant something more than