P.M.? â
âYes.â
âDo you know who killed Aaron Gingrich?â
âNo.â
âDid Aaron tell you who he was afraid of?â
My heart lurched. âNo.â
âJeremy, is there anything pursuant to the death of Aaron Gingrich that you are not telling me?â
âNo.â Sweating.
âOkay. You can open your eyes.â He deflated the cuff on my arm. âDo you want to take a break before we do it again?â
Yeah, I sure did. I could see the last couple of questions on the graph paper, my lines jumping practically off the edge, but he didnât say a word about it. He didnât say anything after I came back from the bathroom, either, just hooked me up and we did it all over again. The exact same questions. I started sweating before he even got to the one â¦
âDid Aaron tell you who he was afraid of?â
I tried to say no, but I knew it was no use. I bent over in my chair and hugged my head in my hands.
The detective said, âJeremy?â
âOh, shit.â
I think he shut off the machine, and then, I swear to God, he hunkered down in front of me and put his hands on top of mineâhis hands felt warm. He said, âOpen your eyes, son. Look at me.â I did, and I saw nothing in his face except sympathy. âJust spit it out,â he said. âWho was Aaron afraid of?â
âNathan,â I whispered.
âWhat, exactly, did Aaron say?â
By then I understood what a polygraph machine was for. After he got the whole story out of me, he nodded, stood up, and started to take the tubes and stuff off me. He asked, âWhy didnât you tell us that before?â
âBecause Nathan didnât do it! He couldnât have!â
âThatâs for the investigators and the jury to decide, son, not you or me. What youâve done is called withholding evidence, and thatâs a crime under the law. Iâm not going to file charges against you, but I could.â
Not even trying to be smart, I said, âHonest to God, I really donât care.â
He eyed me, then nodded as if he understood. âStart caring again,â he said. âHave you been beating up on yourself, son?â
âHuh?â
The word hurt. Huh, hell, pay attention , Aaron would have said.
The detective said, âHave you been telling yourself you could have saved him?â
What the hell, did this guy have ESP? I stared at him, and I guess he saw the answer in my face. He nodded.
âProbably you couldnât have done a damn thing,â he said. âWhen youâre in my business, you see that trying to be a hero doesnât stick it. They say hindsightâs 20/20 but really most of the time itâs a liar. Wishful thinking.â
âReally?â
âReally. So donât you put yourself down, son. Youâre just a good kid, doing your best, like most of us. I want you to remember that.â
He made it sound like an order. I nodded.
âYou got to take care of yourself,â he said, âbecause things are going to get worse before they get better.â
chapter seven
He was right about that.
Close to midnight the phone rang. I was actually sleeping, too, damn it. Whenever anybody phones late, itâs usually for me, so I stumbled out of bed. Actually, I was hoping it was Dad, calling late because he keeps strange hours. I barged into the bratâs room, where she was lying like a lump upside down on her bed, with her head where her feet should have been, and I grabbed her phone. â âLo?â
It wasnât Dad. A manâs polite voice said, âIs this Jeremy Davis?â
âYeah.â
âYou goddamn liar, you ought to be shot.â It was so sudden, the way his voice turned from polite to hateful, I just stood there stunned like heâd really put a bullet in me, which was stupid. I mean, I should have known something like this might happen. Itâs impossible to