flip a few pages, feeling a different kind of tired. When I look again I’m at the chapter that was probably the hardest to write…
C HAPTER F OUR
Jason brushed his lips across mine, a feather light touch I felt in every molecule in my body.
“Are you sure about this?” he asked, his blue eyes darkened by the moonlight peering through the hotel room curtains.
I nodded, giving no mind to the nerves taking flight in my belly. I wanted this. I wanted this with him.
I started unbuttoning his shirt and then slipped it off his broad shoulders. I unbuckled his belt and pushed his pants down his legs.
He turned me around and unzipped my dress, allowing it to fall to the floor and pool at my feet. I was standing in my red lace thong and matching bra, something I knew Jason would like.
“Beautiful,” he whispered, kissing my neck. I shivered.
I turned around to face him.
“Jason, I -”
He pressed his fingers to my mouth. “No pressure, Lace. I won’t be mad if all we do is curl up under the sheets and sleep.”
“I want this,” I said. “I want you. ”
I reached behind me and unclasped my bra. Jason’s eyes moved lower and he stared at my breasts. The urge to cover myself was strong. I had never been so vulnerable before and it scared me. Being so exposed.
His hands gripped my hips and he pivoted me towards the bed. He pushed me down, and I scooted back until my head was on a pillow. The bed dipped beneath his weight and he settled between my legs.
“I’m going to worship your body,” he whispered. His voice was husky, laced with a promise to be gentle.
My chest moved rapidly as my breathing increased. I was turned on beyond relief, and my underwear was already damp. I was ready.
I watched as he sucked a nipple into his mouth. My back bowed off the bed and a strangled moan left my mouth. He moved to the other breast, paying both equal attention, and then sat up as his hands removed my thong.
He stood up and removed his boxer shorts, freeing his hard cock. I stared, transfixed. It wasn’t the first time I’d seen it, but now I wondered if it would fit. He was big.
He placed a foil packet on the bed and then kneeled between my legs.
“Are you really sure about this?” he asked again. My heart warmed at his concern for me. He had no idea just how ready I was, and how much I wanted to give this to him. I loved him.
“Yes,” I replied quietly.
He swallowed, his Adam’s apple bobbing from the movement, and I wondered if he was as nervous as I was.
“I’ll be gentle,” he said. “We’ll go as slow as you want.”
I nodded, giving him a shy smile.
He rubbed my inner thighs, spreading them wider, and started rubbing my pussy before slipping two fingers inside. I inhaled sharply, moving my hips.
“Easy, baby,” he cooed, “just making sure you’re wet.”
My eyes followed his movements, watching him slide his fingers out my body and reach for the condom wrapper. He slid it over his length with ease, and then moved closer. He settled his weight over my body and I felt the head of cock nudge my opening.
Our eyes met, and I saw what he felt for me shining as bright as the midday sun.
“I love you,” he said, his voice softer than a whisper. I smiled and my heart pounded, answering his declaration.
“I love you too,” I replied. I kissed him, and with that he pushed into me.
He groaned, while I tried to keep my breathing normal. With every inch, I felt more and more stretched.
“I have to push a little harder now, baby.”
I inched my legs higher, wrapping them around his waist, and swallowed with a nod.
I tried to relax, but my eyes started watering. I knew it would hurt, but I wasn’t expecting it to be that bad.
Tears slid down my temples, and I tried to stifle my urge to tell him to stop, that it hurt too much. When he pushed in harder, I cried out, praying that it would be over soon.
“I’m sorry,” he whispered, pressing kisses to my face. He stopped moving, allowing