because of her silver-tongued hero in the baggy shorts, she was at the Pasta Bowl, carbo-loading in public. And so was Zinny Bauer, the last person on earth she wanted to see.
That was bad enough, but Jason made it worse, far worseâJason made it into one of the most excruciating moments of her life. What happened was purely crazy, and if she hadnât known Jason better she would have thought heâd planned it. They were squabbling over his cigarette and how unlaid-back and uptight the whole thing had made himâhe was drunk, and she didnât appreciate him when he was drunk, not at allâwhen his face suddenly took on a conspiratorial look and he said, âHey, Paula, you see whoâs here?â
âWho?â she said, and she shot a glance over her shoulder and froze: it was Zinny Bauer and her husband Armin. âOh, shit,â she said, and she lowered her head and focussed on her plate as if it were the most fascinating thing sheâd ever seen. âShe didnât see me, did she? Weâve got to go. Right now. Right this minute.â
Jason was smirking. He looked happy about it, as if he and Zinny Bauer were old friends. âBut youâve only had four plates, babe,â he said. âYou sure we got our moneyâs worth? I could go for maybe just a touch more pastaâand I havenât even had any salad yet.â
âNo joking around, this isnât funny.â Her voice withered in her throat. âI donât want to see her. I donât want to talk to her. I just want to get out of here, okay?â
His smile got wider. âSure, babe, I know how you feelâbut youâre going to beat her, you are, no sweat. You donât have to let anybody chase you out of your favorite restaurant in your owntownâI mean, thatâs not right, is it? Thatâs not in the spirit of friendly competition.â
âJason,â she said, and she reached across the table and took hold of his wrist. âI mean it. Letâs get out of here. Now.â
Her throat was constricted, as if everything sheâd eaten was about to come up. Her legs ached, and her ankleâthe one sheâd sprained last springâfelt as if someone had driven a nail through it. All she could think of was Zinny Bauer, with her long muscles and the shaved blond stubble of her head and her eyes that never quit. Zinny Bauer was behind her, at her back, right there, and it was too much to bear.
âJason,â
she hissed.
âOkay, okay,â he was saying, and he tipped back the dregs of his beer and reached into his pocket and scattered a couple of rumpled bills across the table by way of a tip. Then he rose from the chair with a slow drunken grandeur and gave her a wink as if to indicate that the coast was clear. She got up, hunching her shoulders as if she could compress herself into invisibility and stared down at her feet as Jason took her arm and led her across the roomâif Zinny saw her, Paula wouldnât know about it because she wasnât going to look up, and she wasnât going to make eye contact, she wasnât.
Or so she thought.
She was concentrating on her feet, on the black-and-white checked pattern of the floor tiles and how her running shoes negotiated them as if they were attached to somebody elseâs legs, when all of a sudden Jason stopped and her eyes flew up and there they were, hovering over Zinny Bauerâs table like casual acquaintances, like neighbors on their way to a P.T.A. meeting. âBut arenât you Zinny Bauer?â Jason said, his voice gone high and nasal as he shifted into his Valley Girl imitation. âThe great triathlete? Oh, God, yes, yes, you are, arenât you? Oh, God, could I have your autograph for my little girl?â
Paula was made of stone. She couldnât move, couldnât speak, couldnât even blink her eyes. And Zinnyâshe looked as if her plane had just crashed. Jason was
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