pie. These reassuring scents reminded Margot of the comfort and ease she experienced each time she came to her sisterâs home. Being with Lacey, sharing in this particular annual ritual, had always made Margot feel secure, part of a family, safe from the troubles of the rest of the world. Even when they were little girls, Lacey had provided that same sense of security. The sound of Laceyâs book bag hitting the kitchen table, her footsteps coming up the stairs, or the light seeping from under her bedroom door onto the hall floor made Margot feel more relaxed, almost as if a worry she hadnât known existed had disappeared.
Now, with the knowledge of Laceyâs illness, it was as if someone had left a window open and a cold draft was blowing in. That lovely, safe feeling of home had been spoiled.
Kate and Hugh Martin, Alex and Laceyâs friends, were coming at four, and Lacey was planning to serve dinner at five. Hugh was running in a 10K race during the day, so they had decided on an early-evening meal. During the academic year, the Martins lived at Warner Academy, a prestigious boarding school where they both worked. They spent summers and school holidays in New Castle, in a white-shingled house a few blocks away from the Georgesâ home.
In the course of the morning, nothing more had been said about Laceyâs condition. Wink had come into the kitchen around eleven, and she had made the cranberry sauce. Toni appeared an hour later while Wink and Margot sat at the kitchen table sipping tea and enjoying the apple spice muffins that Lacey had made two weeks earlier and frozen to have on hand for the holiday weekend.
âI thought you were never going to get off the phone last night,â Wink said, giving her sister a cool glance.
âIf you needed the phone you could have said something.â Toni glared at her twin. Her long hair, wet from the shower, had darkened the back of her shirt. âCouldnât you have used your cell?â
âYeah, right.â Wink didnât bother to say that cell phone coverage was lousy in their area. They all knew that.
Margot was used to the girls squabbling from time to time. They had the normal adolescent arguments, but now, with the knowledge of Laceyâs illness, she was uncomfortable with their behavior. She wanted Laceyâs day to be as smooth as possible.
âWhy were you on the phone so late?â Lacey asked.
âIt wasnât a school night,â Toni said. She took a container of yogurt out of the refrigerator. âRyan is coming to Portsmouth tonight to see some friends. He wants me to go out.â
âNo,â Lacey said. âKate and Hugh . . . are coming.â
âAfter they leave, Mom. I wonât go out till later.â She pulled herself up straight; she was not as tall as her mother or Wink.
Lacey shook her head and continued to roll out piecrust. âAunt Margotâs here too.â
âI donât mind,â Margot blurted out before she had a chance to think.
âSee,â Toni said.
âBut I understand how your mom feels,â Margot added, regretting how sheâd unwittingly become involved in their discussion.
âI know what this is really about,â Toni said. âYou donât like Ryan.â
âIââagain Lacey pausedâânever said that.â
âYou donât like that heâs older.â
âThatâs not it.â
âMom, Iâm not running off with him. I just want to go out for coffee. Kate and Hugh will be gone by ten. Theyâre like you and Dad. They never stay late.â
Lacey had opened her mouth as if to say something more. Her face was flushed and she shook her head, running her teeth across her lower lip. Margot was saddened to see Lacey upset and wished her daughters knew what their mother was going through.
Toni took a spoon from the silverware drawer and slammed it closed. She walked out of the kitchen,