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the chance of her retreat to make his own. But he stayed, chatting calmly with her mother, talking slowly to Roger while her mother fetched the tea, ignoring her embarrassing performance entirely, keeping up a quiet, companionable presence in the shabby room.
    The rattle and bustle of the tea tray’s arrival gave her the opportunity to drop her cloth façade, and she meekly accepted a slice of toast spread with a thin scrape of margarine and a delectable spoonful of the strawberry jam.
    ‘There, now,’ her mother said, looking on with approval. ‘You’ll not have eaten anything since breakfast, I daresay. Enough to give anyone the wambles.’
    Marjorie shot her mother a look, but in fact it was true; she hadn’t had any luncheon because Maisie was off with ‘female trouble’—a condition that afflicted her roughly every other week—and she’d had to mind the shop all day.
    Conversation flowed comfortably around her, a soothing stream past an immoveable rock. Even Roger relaxed with the introduction of jam. He’d never tasted any before, and sniffed it curiously, took a cautious lick—and then took an enormous bite that left a red smear on his nose, his moss-green eyes round with wonder and delight. The little box, now open, sat on the piecrust table, but no one spoke of it or looked in that direction.
    After a decent interval, Captain Randall got up to go, giving Roger a shiny sixpence in parting. Feeling it the least she could do, Marjorie got up to see him out. Her stockings spiralled down her legs, and she kicked them off with contempt, walking bare-legged to the door. She heard her mother sigh behind her.
    ‘Thank you,’ she said, opening the door for him. ‘I … appreciate—’
    To her surprise, he stopped her, putting a hand on her arm.
    ‘I’ve no particular right to say this to you—but I will,’ he said, low-voiced. ‘You’re right; they’re not all brave. Most of them—of us—we’re just … there, and we do our best. Most of thetime,’ he added, and the corner of his mouth lifted slightly, though she couldn’t tell whether it was in humour or bitterness.
    ‘But your husband—’ He closed his eyes for a moment and said, ‘The bravest are surely those who have the clearest vision of what is before them, glory and danger alike, and yet notwithstanding, go out to meet it.’ He did that, every day, for a long time.’
    ‘You sent him, though,’ she said, her voice as low as his. ‘You did.’
    His smile was bleak.
    ‘I’ve done such things every day … for a long time.’
    The door closed quietly behind him, and she stood there swaying, eyes closed, feeling the draft come under it, chilling her bare feet. It was well into the autumn now, and the dark was smudging the windows, though it was just past teatime.
    I’ve done what I do every day for a long time, too
, she thought.
But they don’t call it brave when you don’t have a choice
.
    Her mother was moving through the flat, muttering to herself as she closed the curtains. Or not so much to herself.
    ‘He liked her. Anyone could see that. So kind, coming himself to bring the medal and all. And how does she act? Like a cat that’s had its tail stepped on, all claws and caterwauling, that’s how. How does she ever expect a man to—’
    ‘I don’t want a man,’ Marjorie said loudly. Her mother turned round, squat, solid, implacable.
    ‘You need a man, Marjorie. And little Rog needs a father.’
    ‘He has a father,’ she said through her teeth. ‘Captain Randall has a wife. And I don’t need anyone.’
    Anyone but Jerry
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Northumbria
    He licked his lips at the smell. Hot pastry, steaming, juicy meat. There was a row of fat little pasties ranged along the sill, covered with a clean cloth in case of birds, but showing plump and rounded through it, the odd spot of gravy soaking through the napkin.
    His mouth watered so fiercely that his salivary glands ached and he had to massage the underside of his jaw to ease