theyâre hiding something. I can smell it.â
âDoes it smell like musty old clothes?â I tried to lighten the mood again. âBecause thatâs just the carpets.â
He tensed, not in the mood for joking.
âThis isnât London,â I said, more seriously this time. âElizabeth clearly lets them run wild, and theyâve no idea what to do with us. You saw the disdainful look Valentina gave Lucy, like weâd die without our tea and crumpets.â I laid a hand on his chest, toying with his top button. âI suspect sheâs just jealous of our nice clothes and fancy address in the city.â
For a moment we stood mirrored on either side of the door while the wind whistled outside. His jaw tensed, and he stepped back so my hand fell. âWe donât have a fancy address anymore. We can never return to London, not since you murdered three men.â
I blinked. The fire crackled, heat trying to push us even farther apart, and my heartbeat sped up. âYou know I had no choice. I didnât want to do it.â
âThat isnât what you said at the time. I could see in your eyes how badly you wanted to kill Inspector Newcastle. You burned him alive .â He paused, breathing heavily, arms braced on either side of the door. I could only gape, wanting to deny the accusation but not quite able to. âSometimes you remind me so much of your father, itâs frightening.â
The sting in his words settled into the curtains andbedspread like the smell of chimney smoke, and just as impossible to get rid of. âIt was better than letting them use Fatherâs research,â I said in my defense. âThey would have hurt so many more people. Father would have helped them, not stopped them.â
He cursed under his breath. âI shouldnât have said anything.â
I placed my hand on my forehead, trying to calm the blood searing in my veins. âNo. Donât apologize. We said weâd always be honest with each other. And if Iâm being honest with you, I think you should be thankful we have a roof over our heads and walls around us, and stop questioning Elizabethâs generosity. Thereâs nothing wrong with these people, and thereâs nothing wrong with me.â
I closed the door in his face, twisted the key, and leaned my back against it. He knocked and called to me, but I didnât answer. I crawled into bed and thought about Montgomeryâs words. It was true that Iâd been obsessed with bringing the water-tank creatures to life, even knowing the bloodshed that would follow. Maybe the fortune-teller was right. Reading the future was nonsense, but there was a grain of truth in how his predictions had made me feelâas though escaping Father was impossible, even in death. Maybe, just maybe, I should stop trying so hard to fight it.
FIVE
T HAT NIGHT , I DREAMED I was in the professorâs house on Dumbarton Street, in the cellar where weâd kept the Beast locked away. I descended the stairs slowly, listening for the tap-tap-tap of claws on the stone floor. When I faced the barred cellar door, though, no yellow eyes met mine. Tropical warmth and the smell of the sea came instead. I was back on Fatherâs island, ankle deep in the surf, watching the volcanoâs plume ascend into a cloudless sky.
âYouâre engaged to him,â a voice said from behind me. âYet you know so little about him.â
The Beast emerged from among the palms. Iâd only ever seen the Beast at night, or cast in shadows. In sunlight he looked more like Edward. Just an ordinary young manâexcept for his golden yellow eyes.
âMontgomery and I grew up together,â I said. âI know him better than anyone.â
âAnd yet heâs keeping secrets from you.â The Beast stopped a few feet away from me, smelling both sweet andbitter, like the blood-soaked plumeria flowers heâd left for me in