live there.â
âWell, at least you get along with Father more than the rest of us. You know how to get round him when you want. You have an easy life of it here, if you ask me.â
âIâm not asking. I hate it here, I never wanted to come. I wish we were still in the town.â
âWhat? Choking to death next to the chemical works? If Mam hadnât moved us up here where the airâs fresher, our Jack would be dead by now.â
âAye, itâs always Jack, Jack. Mam only cares for him - and you - Mamâs little pet. No one thinks about what I want. The only one who looks out for me is Aunt Maggie. I wish she were my mam.â
Kate kept silent at the provocation, for maybe there was some truth in it. There had been hard times after their father died when Maggie had taken in baby Mary and brought her up as her own. She still remembered the day when the resentful young Mary was brought back to live with them, kicking and wailing and destroying the family harmony. Only John had any patience with her; for her sisters it meant less food on their plates and less room in the bed. She wondered if Mary would ever be happy. It was just in her nature to hanker after what she couldnât have, or want to be somewhere other than where she was.
Kate rolled to the edge of the mattress, thinking how good it would be to get away to Aunt Lizzieâs. She sank into an exhausted sleep long before Maryâs unhappy mutterings ceased.
But when the day of departure came, Kate was suddenly tearful at leaving her family behind. She had given notice in Shields, the note to Lizzie had been sent and a small wicker basket of possessions packed. Jack was going to help her carry it down to the railway station in Shields before going on to school and Mary was coming for the outing.
John was sitting slurping tea at the table, dressed for work. He had avoided her all week, hardly giving her a glance, and Kate wondered what he recalled of the previous Saturday. Something about his awkwardness towards her suggested that he was eager to be rid of her; she was a thorn under his skin.
âKateâs off then, John,â Rose said stiffly.
He looked up and nodded. âYou behave yourself and work hard. Donât do owt to bring shame to your mother or me, do you hear?â
âNo, Father, course not.â Kate hesitated. A week ago she would have dashed forward and planted a kiss on his hollowed cheeky but now she was wary. âTa-ra then.â
She clattered out of the cottage with Rose following into the dewy morning light. Her mother pressed a parcel of jam sandwiches wrapped in brown paper into her hands. âTake care of yourselâ, hinny.â
âOh, Mam!â Kate flung her arms around her motherâs neck, squashing the bundle of food. âWill you be all right?â
âAye, donât fuss.â Rose pushed her away gently. âTell Lizzie Iâm askinâ after her and let us know when youâre settled.â
Her words sounded final, as if she did not expect a swift return. Roseâs wistful look and the way she fondly adjusted her daughterâs straw hat was too much for Kate. The tears that were stinging her eyes flooded down her pale cheeks.
âI wonât go if you donât want me to!â
Mary huffed down the path. âWell, Iâll go then.â
Rose thrust a rag of pocket handkerchief at Kate. âCourse youâll go. Wipe your eyes and letâs hear no more wailinâ. Now be off with you or Jackâll be late for his lessons.â
Kate blew her nose and tried to quell the sobbing she felt welling up inside. She did not attempt to kiss her mother again.
âIâll write. Mary can read it to you.â
Rose nodded and waved her away. Kate gave one last look at the cottage as they turned into the lane. Rose was still standing in the doorway, her face in shadow. The brooding cooing of hens broke the early morning quiet