here when youâre ready to resume your career.â
âI appreciate that, Benjamin, I really do. As you know, Iâve devoted my professional life to this firm. My wife would have said that I devoted my entire life to this firm.â
He gave me a knowing smile, surely recognizing where this was heading. âDaniel, I know how hard youâve worked, because itâs as hard as Iâve worked, and as hard as every single one of our partners has worked. And as many hours as we have all logged, it probably is roughly the same amount of time as put in by the worldâs best surgeons, and pianists, and writers, and athletes. The others in ourlivesâspouses, children, friendsâthey all get a little less because of the commitment we have to make to practice law at our level. And youâve just established yourself in that topmost echelon with the Macy verdict. Donât throw all that away, Daniel. Instead, why donât you take some time to think about how you want the rest of your career to look, and then call me when youâve made a decision.â
âI appreciate the offer, Benjamin. I do, along with everything youâve done for me over the years, but Iâve made up my mind. Iâm done with this.â I could have left it there, but I wanted to make it crystal clear that this was final, and well considered. âAnd since you brought up the Macy case, you need to know . . . itâs not a reason for me to stay, itâs a reason for me to leave.â
I knew that he wouldnât try to talk me out of it any further. âI see,â he said in a measured voice. âBest of luck to you,â and then he shook my hand.
And that was it. I hadnât spoken to him or anyone else at Taylor Beckett since that day. Even though Iâd known many of my coworkers for twenty years, I didnât get a single telephone call or email. I was just as much to blame for the silence as my former colleagues, as I hadnât reached out to them, either. The expression out of sight, out of mind doesnât apply anywhere more than at a large law firm. It was all very Orwellian; I was wiped from the institution as completely as if Iâd never worked there at all.
But now, this afternoon, and after all this time, I dialed Benjamin Ethan.
His assistant, a woman named Janeene, answered his phone. When I worked at Taylor Beckett, I spoke to Janeene so frequently that she joked about wishing her husband called her half as much as I did. But when I gave her my name and asked to speak to Ethan, she was all business, asking me to hold while she told âMr. Ethanâ that I was on the line.
âDaniel. Long time, no talk,â Ethan said when he finally pickedup, after Iâd been on hold for the better part of two minutes. âWhat has it been, two, three years?â
âEighteen months, actually.â
âTime. Where does it go?â
I chuckled to myself. Youâd think that a guy who billed $1,250 for every sixty minutes would have a better sense of time.
âHow have you been?â I asked.
âYou know, a slave to the billable hour. But I canât complain. What can I do for you?â
âIâm ready to get back into practice.â
âIâm glad to hear it. But, well, you know the way this place runs. Itâs not up to only me, and after so much time . . . I just donât want you to get your hopes up, thatâs all. Iâll certainly advocate for your return, but I donât know how the other partners will feel about it.â
This was hardly a surprise. Iâd long suspected that Ethanâs grandiose âyouâre always welcome back hereâ when Iâd left the firm was classic lawyer BS. The last thing that anyone at Taylor Beckett wanted now was for me to return. Nature might abhor a vacuum, but a big law firm devours it. My cases had been reassigned, and my clients were now firmly under