awkward silence.
âYou just need to sign here,â she pointed, and then stapled the till docket to the paper. âYour dad will sort it out with me later on.â
âThanks,â I mumbled.
My shoulders are red where the backpack straps cut in and my legs are like jelly. The joke is, Iâm too buggered to cook myself any of the food I lugged back. That walk is too far to do both ways in one day! One way, maybe, okay, you can do that, but bothâwith a load to haul on the way back? Itâs too much. I can just hear Dad giving me heaps about being young and fit, blah blah blah. Shove it up your datehole, Dad, is all I can say. You need training to be able to do this sort of stuff. You donât just stand up one day and crank out a marathon, do you? Jesus fucking Christ, he has no idea. Iâd like to see him do what Iâve just done. I need a bit of humour in my day.
One good thing, though. One good thing. That shitty town does have a post office. Well, kind of. The shitty little shop is a shitty little postal agent, so they collect shitty mail. The woman explained it to me when I asked her if there was a postbox anywhereâthere wasnât even one of them, can you believe that? She just collects it all in an old Australia Post canvas bag. Talk about a two-bit town. Thereâs a phone box out the front of the shop. How very high-tech. Bet the phone doesnât work. So, anyway, I could send my old man his stupid letter, and there was some mail waiting for me. Iâve got it in my bag, saved it for when I got home as a sort of reward, seeing as thereâs jack shit else to do and I feel like I just survived the Kokoda Track. I got three things: one from the old man, one from Craggs, and one fromâjoy!âBella. All that should provide hours of entertainment once Iâve slept off this pain. Iâve never been so tired or sore in all my life. My legs feel like theyâve been invaded by small men with hammers.
I might not even make it to bed. This old couch is actually quite comfortable, even if it does smell of twenty-year-old mushrooms...
11
A small package falls out as I open her letter. Itâs wrapped in soft purple paper and for Joel is written on the outside. I look at it and my heart expands stupidly for a minute. I put it over to one side. Calm down, Joel. Calm. I straighten out the pages.
Joel,
How goes it out there, you crazy forest hippie?
Wonât tell you Iâm missing you. Cool news first: the girls soccer team is cranking! We seriously rock! Razed Willetton to the ground like daisies under a lawnmower on Saturday. My old man was so impressed he could barely keep his gob shut ... heâs been calling us the Hammy High Hitwomen ever since.
Iâm gunna go for the school play this year. This new drama teacher has actually managed to incite a bit of enthusiasm. Heâs in his mid-twenties and is almost normal, as opposed to, say, being a fifty-year-old gay, washed-up, Shakespearean actor who prances around in silk scarves and talks about âmetaphorâ and âwhen I was in acting schoolâ. This guy ... youâd really like him. Auditions are in a few weeks.
I hope youâre okay down there. Squeeze it for everything itâs worth, you know?
Iâve got a warm spot in here for you, when all this is over.
âI tell you the past is a bucket of ashes.ââCarl Sandburg
Write to me.
Bella
Oh I am gunna curl up with this and go to sleep with a sunbeam smile on my face. I wanna be in that warm place of hers. She is one gorgeous, smart, amazing girl. Sheâs right, sheâs so right. This is my chance, this is my timeâthis is no fucking joke, for Christâs sake! Dad saved my lucky arse, heâs given me this major opportunity to sort out my shit. And Bellaâs giving me one too. I reckon ... this is my last chance with her. Iâve gotta go for it and be strong and smart. I can do
James Rollins, Rebecca Cantrell